♥ Iftar at Sakura. ♥
Tuesday, August 31, 2010 ( 11:01:00 PM )
I met my baby. Went to Sakura to break fast. I had Singapore fried bee hoon & Fruit punch. But, why the fruit punch tasted like bandung? Weird.. just because it has the same colour.. it almost tasted the same. Prolly in the midst of business.. the staffs got it mixed up. Clumsiness do happens at times. There's no one to blame.
I ordered for him seafood fried rice n home made ice lemon tea. what to expect when I asked him, what he wants to eat.. he told me anything. Haha. But still, if he dun liek what i ordered for him.. he can exchanged with me. Also, We had some pandan leaf chicken too. But he called it as "Chicken dumpling" Hehe. Thats a cute name though.
I purposely asked him out today cos of like the Metro sale & I wanted to meet him. Eventually, we bought nuthing frm the metro sale. Not much items are discounted though.. and we had Mac Donald's ice cream before we head home. I guess today is just another day where I meet you.. and you meet me. And the next thing I know, I'm missing you again.Labels: a smile on my face
♥ Speechless at last. ♥
Monday, August 30, 2010 ( 8:55:00 PM )
Those times that we had..
I missed it the most right now. I'm not sure how things have changes lately. But i know i am seing a different person of who you are. Don't say i love you, when you don't mean it.. Cos these words are best to be shown than said. Is it really worth searching high and low for the person you love, but at the end of the day all you get is just some unappreciative love n concern? Maybe i just bother too much. Maybe I should just... stop.
I really hope you know what you're doing boy. Letting me go would be much easier. Just imagine.
He called me while I was in the ntuc shopping stuffs for iftar..
& he said "I couldn't imagine if it was you"
So what happened? mr a was back home early today.
He went to the hospital with his fren to visit his fren's wife at ICU.
Accidents happen, and we can't deny that.
But for this particularly one, it happened on a week before Raya(next week).
She had a fall at home.. and is now on a life support.
"My fren macam tk terurus ngan rambut die sume.."
So I asked, only after what happened to ur fren's wife thats y u called me?
"ya, i called to check if ur okay."
And I replied.. awwww, im touched.
At least I manage to steal a few moments of his time to get him to call me.
It's hard for him to call me nowadays you know. Hehe.
And to think that whatever has happened to his fren..
Hopefully everything goes well okay? Amin.
Though I dun really know them, but i & mr a do feel sad.
And I do believe everyone has their own hardships.. its a matter of time.
Lot of patience, we need to overcome these.
Above all, it reminded me: God is Great.
And mr a.. you have no idea how i would feel if this would had happen to you.
The fear of getting traumatized, its still growing strong deep inside me.
What if.. Astaga.
Labels: shut up and let me go
♥ Apology To Apologize. ♥
Sunday, August 29, 2010 ( 10:39:00 PM )
Everything seems ok right? But not for long.
12.10pm onwards..
Amri: Gd noony
Sara: Good noony to u dear
Amri: B out alrdy
Sara: Just came back frm driving, n now going out agn. y?
Amri: Ohok..Gg meet ur cuz?
Sara: My aunt ask me out go jln2 at vivo..and den only fetch them.y?
Amri: Just asking
Sara: I asked sumone out for supper. But he ignored me all the way till night. if he dun wan to go out w me.. he can say so right.if he's tired or busy..he can say so n i will understand.the thing is,i asked him out but he nv reply. and i still nv get any answer untill i fall asleep waiting for him.wow
Amri: Baby smlm i text u when i gt ur sms... u alrdy asleep syg
Sara: exactly.. u kept on putting ur hp away frm u syg. that's y it's hard for u to reply.n u kept me waiting.I sms at 9pm.. no reply.. 11 pm.. no reply. called u..no reply. I tried to find time to spend w u,despite ur busy schedule but i guess ur just too busy right? haish
Amri: B, i did sms u right but u were asleep. Ok my fault. I'm sorry love. Don't get mad at me pls? I love you. I really do
Labels: mr.a
♥ What About Now? ♥
Saturday, August 28, 2010 ( 11:58:00 PM )
8.26am
Amri: Baby gd moaning..
Sara: yawns.. good moaning dear
Amri: Baby what time meeting me?
Sara: we'll stick to the 11am timing?
Amri: ok
Sara: we meeting straight at unisim right?
Amri: U want me pick u up issit?
Sara: hmmmm the sbs bus driver will be picking me up at 10 frm my bus stop actually.. but if u insist..den ok lor. Once u reach let me know
9.12am
Amri: Eh like that eh now.Hmm ok lor
Sara: I maseh majok ngan u tkkn u nk majok ngan i plak.mane i tk sedih..smlm ur like so busy to even layan me
Amri: ok baby 10 this motor driver will pick u up
4.02pm
Sara: Baby nk gi supper mlm nie?
4.30pmAmri: Supper
5.19pm
Sara: yerp2..haha.actually it was random. i haven really get to spend time w u this week
Amri: Aww how's ur briefing?
5.32pm
Sara: i fall asleep.. haha.. and the best part is, the briefing got refreshments.haish.. erm, breifing okok only
6.16pm
Amri: oh, u pon bedal refreshment
6.30pm
Sara: nooo.. i didnt bedal. not nice mah fasting mth eat outside during the day. baby nie..mentang2 i tk puasa..hmph!
9.06pmSara: u ngah uat ape?
11.04pm
Sara: time check.. i guess supper is not tonight. if ur busy.. just continue whatever ur doing bie. u've been busy frm ystrday.n i dunno w wat.maybe im not suppose to knw the reason beneath ur silence. hopefully u know wat ur doing rite nw.take care.good night
11.34pm
Amri: Sorry i put my ho ib silent mode while charging.. B sleeping already
*Notice the typo? Are you rushing to reply me or sumthing?Labels: mad about you
♥ It's so short. Yet Too Long. ♥
Friday, August 27, 2010 ( 9:06:00 PM )
6.13pm
Sara: baby u kat ne. otw home? take care otw home ok (:
6.49pm
Amri: Yup. u?
7.03pm
Sara: yerp.same2..good gerl go home straight.
8.43pm
Sara: s+e+n+y+a+p=senyap?
Amri: Haha sempat baby spell..
Sara: yeah.. sempat sekali
10.08pm
Sara: the morning has passed without us saying good moaning.and the day has passed wuth just two simple msgs from u.it's been one hr since ur last reply.prolly the whole of today is just a day.. wer u're caught up w things that needs ur attention more den i do...if ur busy today,i'll just end my msg here w a simple..good night.
10.34pm
Amri: Baby majok..? Besok jumpe what time?
Sara: I'll see you at where?
11.38pm
Sara: Tak reply lagik sey u.issit so hard to just steal 5-10mins of ur time to plan for tmr?
Amri: Hmmm see you there at 11?
Sara: I dunno if i'll be late. see how, insya-allahLabels: mr.a
♥ Over A Small Matter. ♥
Thursday, August 26, 2010 ( 10:28:00 PM )
i am.. upset! shouldn't we be meeting?
Oh.. i guess its only me who thought that we are meeting. But actually its a meet up thats never meant to be. Just whatever ok? I'm having my PMS now.. and i guess he just don't get it. All I ask for.. is to see him this Sat.
This week.. we only see each other for like 3 hrs or less. And the meet up was only because of the randomness of watching step up 3d yesterday. And yes, I made him come all the way to AMK to watch the movie.. cos i dun feel like going anywhere further. I dunno if its tiring for him to finish werk at 4pm.. and go home to sleep. Then after breaking fast at 7pm, he left the house to ride back to work.. and then go back to work to punch card ard 8pm. And after all these he went to amk to meet me. No doubt he looks great in the boots and the jackets n stuffs like that. But then again.. even after the meet up I just feel empty. Till now
If i just met you for like 3 hrs yesterday.. and i got to know that saturday you cant spend time with me.. cos of your work. Then when would I see you again? I called him ok.
S: Saturday,so how? Whats the plan?
A: I finish work at 8pm
S: Then what time will u be reaching the uni
A: Around 11am
S: That means after that we will still go out
A: See if they call me to come back to work
S: ok.. then it means we wont be going out right. Sedihnye
When I thought Saturday was suppose to be his off day, he work till 5pm. When I thought he work till 5pm.. he finish at 8pm. When I thought he could go out with me, he has to say that his workplace might be calling him. When i thought prolly me and him can go out somewhere like Johore by bus, he thinks its better to go by car at night. so what now? Looks like I dun want to plan alrdy
I am not msging you. let me have some space of my own. let it us go to work without any good morning. let us go to bed without any good night. **Another thing is.. can i complain it here? he dun call me alrdy with his house phone. he msg me those like short words. and i dunno if this meet up matter to him or not. this is what happens when i get too emotionally attached to him. Great!Labels: mad about you
♥ Monday Is Here. ♥
Monday, August 16, 2010 ( 9:35:00 PM )
Tonnes to update.. I'm so lazy to type.
Labels: blogging this blogspot
♥ The adventures of City Square. ♥
Saturday, August 14, 2010 ( 11:02:00 PM )
Seoul Garden Dinner with my colleagues.
We went to JB via the bus. And lucky today the traffic is not so bad.. everything went smoothly. No jam @ causeway. It's a movie time.. Jean yip pedicure & Seoul Garden dinner. Apart from that, there's still watson's shopping! Haha. There, its cheaper than here. Seriously, you can just spend spend spend.However, on the way home back from JB.. somehow, it's fighting time with amri.
I just dunno why.. that suddenly whatever my happiness with him can go down the drain. Like seriously? We're fighting over I didnt text him when I was back from JB. Me & my colleagues finish eating quite late.. and because of I reached Singapore about 10.30pm.. It is like a total misunderstanding. I know he cared for me like a lot.. But dun u think having negative thoughts about my safety is just too much, whereas im already safe at Singapore I mean.. I do really want to be cared, want to be loved. Just be happy that im back safely alright baby..
Labels: cheapskating my way through
♥ Meeting you on TGIF. ♥
Friday, August 13, 2010 ( 10:59:00 PM )
Its a random meet up when early in the morning i got a msg from baby. A simple question he asked.. Baby today go where after work? Yes I met him. Deciding the place to meet is always the hardest. Cos eventually, I have to make the final decision.. all because of my little choosiness & also because of his "anything goes" behaviour.
For the fact that its Friday today.. i specially end my work at 5pm. Then I have to wait for baby to finish work at 6pm. Thats kindda long right? He even suggested that I go home first while waiting for him. On the other hand, I will be wasting ez-link money on transport.. And I dun want that to happen!! In the end, we settled for woodlands bazaar. I suddenly got this cravings to eat those kind of pasar malam kindda of food. Yakitori or ramly bugar, sugar cane juices, air kathirah.. & especially cempedak goreng. I love them the most! Hehe. Too bad we never took the picture of what we ate today.. If not, It super tempting la.
Food that we ate for breaking fast,
1) Air Kathirah
2) Fried Yu Tiao with Mayonnaise & Yong Tau Fu's sauce
3) Cempedak Goreng
4) Vegetable Fritters
5) Cheese Hotdog.
Believe it or not after eating these food, we are like full. Haha. And we break fast nearby the Woodlands mrt. Too bad there's no more space and Woodlands Banquet. It's super damn pack there can? But still, after some bites, we still go to Banquet & have some Sea Coconut w Aloe Vera kindda ice kacang. Yummy. Then, home sweet home. *Mr a can get sensitive sumtimes.. especially when I accidentally saw my aunt at causeway point when I was talking on the phone with him. I told him to i’ll called him back and I chatted with my aunt a while. But end up the next thing i know, mr a is already heading towards banquet. Eh.. But I thought we haven decide where to meet? I thought I was suppose to meet you at the Burger King. I thought u were suppose to stay at that Burger King? Well.. these are the only things of what I thought. Basically, he’s kindda angry when I just hang up the phone without any confirmation wer to mit.. Haha. Pretend to be angry only la u.. when you see me, your heart is okay liao :D Well, this is my mr a..Labels: mr.a
♥ 1st Day of Fasting. ♥
Wednesday, August 11, 2010 ( 10:51:00 PM )
Selamat menyambut Ramadan Eid Mubarak
|a|m|r|i| says: u?
Love.Sara says: baby dah alek umah? hello! i was waiting for 10.30.. thought want call you.. hahaha but u online..
*|a|m|r|i| is away*
Love.Sara says: dear?
|a|m|r|i| says: hey. what you doing
Love.Sara says: hey? im online.. what u doing?
|a|m|r|i| says: im exercising. heheh.. after exercise i call you k syg? muah
Love.Sara says: huh.. mlm2? u sure a not?
Exactly! Who would exercise late at night? You ok or not dear? Haha. Well, whatever it is.. I am still proud that even though its fasting month, someone never neglect to exercise. All I can do for now is, to forget about the idea of being buncit with you together2 la. Haha. But I still wonder.. what kind of exercise can he do at this hour.. Hmm. wait till he call me & I'll find out. Good night people.. & I'm kindda glad that fasting month is here. Make sure we all do good deeds ok.. and make us closer to good. Insya-Allah, amin!Labels: words that you said
♥ Baby Baby Baby Oh. ♥
Saturday, August 7, 2010 ( 11:30:00 PM )
Eventually.. I got angry at mr a for nuthing yesterday.
Haha. Kirekan, I was merajok with him la when I blogged about him keeping quiet. After blogging, I went to give him a call & we're ok. But still.. I find that the call made me a little angry more n more. Actually, my intention of calling him is to ask, You kat mane? Busy2? Then all he said - I'm with my fren..busy.
(Okkk. Being the fact that, I knew he won't talk to me when he's with his fren.. ) I immediately say, ok Bye2. After that I switched off my hp and cry. I mean, seriously.. I looked for him after some silence and that's all he gotta say? At last, before I sleep.. I on my phone and it rang. Omg, mr a called me. He knew my hp was off all along. and the best part is, if I never off my hp.. he would have gone to my place and meet me ard my area. Thanks eh, bie.*
He was like.. Baby, marah? Of course la I ngah marahkan you. You always like to layan your fren mah whenever I called you. He explained that his fren had some problem with gf.. and mr a helps to settle it. Even if he's at ebuddy, he cant reply me.. cos he's with his fren. even when I msg him, he nv reply. The reaction of his fren seems apologetic, the way he described it when he called mr a for help.. and they were like under his block discussing this matter. And he described me to his friend as, perempuan aku..
"perempuan aku tadi msg ckp tknk shopping.. tapi aku tanu punye lah die mesti shopping"
Then his friend asked, abeh kau tk teman die? He replied, aku tau la.. die independent. Hehe. Yes, I went shopping after work.. especially when my work ended at 4pm today. I tried to give hint to mr a that I wanted to go out with him after work, but I dun think he got the msg. So I just shop alone.. and its at an industrial place that i have nv gone before. I bought a few set collection of perfumes.. 2 for myself. One for daddy, one for baby.. another one as bday present. And 2 clenser for me.. and some Givenchy facial for me too. Money money fly fly. Nontheless.. let's take this shopping as a temporary investment.Labels: a smile on my face
♥ Shut Up For Another Moment. ♥
Friday, August 6, 2010 ( 9:57:00 PM )
Your silence is killing me deep down inside. You dun know it do you.. I bet you don't have a clue.
You'll never understand it sometimes that girls wants to be pampered, loved and cared.
And your silence is the best so far.. cos it makes me feel like I'm being totally ignored. 4 hours since your silence.. or maybe more. Oh well, does it really matter now? Do I really that matter to you. Ask yourself this.. cos I'm sick of asking myself.. whatever.
*I've not said this to you rite.. that I totally hate it when you kept quiet. You make me feel that I dun exist. It's been a long time you've kept quiet.. prolly, you missed being in silence. And because of you, I'm crying when I'm missing you.Labels: silence is your game
♥ In My Dreams. ♥
Tuesday, August 3, 2010 ( 10:01:00 PM )
I had a dream last night. I dreamt of someone that I had long lost few years ago. And as I was reading some phrases of the holy al-quran.. there is this saying that those pple in syurga will be provided isteri-isteri for them there. Then suddenly I thought of arwah. As he passed away during the month of Ramadhan. I thought syurga is the place for him and he will eventually find some companion there.
Even so, he appeared in my dreams yesterday. Im not sure if I have been thinking too much lately.. but this is what I dreamt anyway.
Firstly, when I saw him in my dreams.. I said "Dah lama I tk nampak you. Mana you pergi. Asal I call2 your hp dulu tk jawab.. skrg aru dpt". He gave me the kind of feeling whereby he dissapeared for a long time, and suddenly he came back to look for me. He looks very mat rock kind now.. It seems as if he had those kind of tatoos or body stickers all over his body. And this tatoo's showed as if he's doing all this things cos he's mad at me. He tatooed some heart shapes on his body.. There is 2 heart shapes.. and it is in red.. and till now the shape of the tatoo is still vivid in my mind. I can remember if I saw it on his right hand or his right chest.
I find that the outing is a bit weird with him though.. We just hang out.. And I went 3 places with him. For the fact that I'm deeply in love with mr a. Its kindda weird to hold late bf hands in my dreams.. After dreaming of him, it make me realize that I do really miss and love him still. I have feelings for late bf.. but he's just part of an important person in my life. I cant make him my companion now, cos I know everything has been arranged for him.. I have to move on with life now. Sadly, for the rest of my dreams with him, I cant remember much. And I dunno why, when I thought of him.. I can still cry.
After so many months of not dreaming bout you.. You've came back to me yesterday.
Just like what I've posted in fb.. I know that feeling of losing someone you love. But you just cant help it that you have to let them go. Be strong Junita, you've lose someone special - your mom.
The month of Ramadhan is coming.. and there is this strong feeling inside of me. Am I hoping to meet late bf in my dreams again? Do I really want to make sure he is happy there? Do I really want to know if he's gotten over me? Is he really happy for me now? Except, I find it a bit strange last night when I dreamt of late bf. It's not like I never wash my legs before I sleep you know.. and after dreaming of late bf, I woke up immediately to reality. The I fall back asleep n I dreamt of mr a. Basically, its about mr a wants to meet me in my dreams. He rode his bike over to my place BUT my mum has made plans with my family to go out together. and its a point of time to decide whether to choose mr a or my family. when I had to wake up to work, these dreams just ended.
I'm not sure if you really think I'm a physcotic to be dreaming all this stuffs. I dun ask for this things to happen.. and I'm trying to find some signs or clues to answer myself the big question why?
So many stuffs i'm dreaming of huh.. Well, its scary enuff that the night before last night, I had a nightmare. Some spirit is at my place trying to scare me while I was sleeping. That is why I thought I should wash my feets before heading to bed. And it just ended up of dreaming late bf and mr a. For a minute, thank god there's no nightmare last night.Labels: when i dreamt of you
