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Been pretty busy lately. yes, eversince fri.. i've kept on going out. one whole day i hardly touch comp.. well apart form checking emails only.. other than that i was rush.. rush.. rush and rushing..i seriously felt myself starring in the movie rush hour. hahaha. main role, goes to sara! yay.. ok, im crapping.

In the morning woke up at 11 plus. by the time i bathed, its already 12 plus. I am suppose to reach lakeside.. jurong west at 1 plus. but den.. hahahahhahaha. 1.30 i left the house. ok, i'm late. its like the journey here to jurong will be 1 hr 30 mins. and looking at the clock, i will reach at 3 sey.. so i took bus to amk. grabbed durian pancake.. taxi stand queues are super long.. so, i kinnda play cheat. i then flag a cab at along the road, before the taxi stand.. so i can get the cab first rather than the pple who waited at the taxi stand. hahaha. on the way there, there's a jam at bke.. there goes nearly 20 bucks hole in my pocket.. arrrgh.. nehmind.. claim frm gst. smaaarrtt.

After meeting kak sue and late bf family.. i need to get to town. from 4.30 pm.. it has been extended to 5 pm. hahahaha. so with my time constraint again.. abg din, kak sue husband, gave me a lift to far east plaza while he's on the way to sim lim sq. weather's pretty bad all the way frm jurong to town, its raining! nontheless, thank you abg din. i can nv make it in time if i take public transport.

5 pm, met up fafa at orchard mrt. den only we go play pool. pool game.. 2 vs 2. overall, good game! i want to play pool properly next time. dedicate my heart and soul. brush brush brush skills, no.. i'm not a pro.. i'm still learning. but pool games are fun! (:

Den went off at 8pm. fafa went to work. i went hm. aunty is picking me up at 9pm at home. so i had to rush home. and you know what.. the whole day is pretty busy.. i hadn't had my meals.. i skipped my meals. neither breakfast, lunch nor dinner. mr a is so gonna get angry if he knows. but hey, im so busy.. only when i reached home den i eat. a day with kak sue and family, fafa & pool games, and my aunt. phewww. and tmr's sunday! im super freee.

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Today, i die die die also need to get additional belt to compliment my pretzie for kak sue (late bf sis) URGENTLY. .. Cos tmr i am meeting her and late bf family to do some ziarah. i thought might as well i give pretzie tmr.. surprise with a happy advance b'day. and god knows when i get to c her again..

Since lynn is done with her last paper.. den i ask her if she want go out. she at town with her poly mates eating seoul garden... ahhhh.. sedap! *drools. den i met her up while looking for the belt with her poly mates.. bunch of fun people. hahaha. (: From town we plan to go to marina barrage to slack, take great pics.. ta-pau pringles, sushi, 7 eleven big gulp. but den last shuttle bus is at 6pm. next destination, singapore river nearby one fullerton there it is.. senang ckp, at raffles place lah.. hehe.

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MR. A is BACK! (:

Yes! mr a is finally back..with a msg saying "hey, i'm home" at abt 8 am in the morning. i happen to be awake. den from there i woke up.. and tadaaa, he's already at msn. hahahaha.

Later in the evening, i went out alone to look for stuffs at Far East and Bugis Village, looking for late bf sis pretzie and window shopping. also, looking for whats hot and whats not. hehe. by den at about 6, when mr. a woke up.. he ask where was i and if i need him to teman. haha. den i just say you want to meet me issit... i could meet him for dinner. (: dinner at tong seng it is. and i saw my cousin-nabila at tong seng, while i was with mr a!

him: i have the fried fish bee hoon
shop owner: bee hoon ah?
him: yes..
shop owner: bee hoon the thin one ah..
him: yes..
shop owner: fishhead fried fish bee hoon ah..
him: huh.. fishhead? okay lah.. can lah..

her: uncle, i have the slice fish bee hoon
shop owner: also bee hoon ah?
her: yes..

him: uncle, my fried fish bee hoon i dun wan the fishead.
shop owner: (pointing to the menu) this fried fish bee hoon lah..
him: ah, yes
shopowner: fried fish bee hoon with milk?
him: ok

Hahahahahhahaha! i was laughing all the way when the conversation was going on. how come mr a wants to eat fried fish bee hoon but ended up with the "fishhead" fried fish? He pointed out at the wrong menu lah! he wanted to eat fried fish bee hoon but point out at the "fishead" fried fish instead. den when the uncle say about fishead.. he anyhow say ok.. hahaha. funny lah u mr a.

Conversations is mostly about his stories in brunei. and i exchanged stories with what i did when im stuck in singapore. In brunei, he just got to know puspa song by st12 intro by one of his man,.. dedicated for the sergeants who miss the girls.. haha. through out 2 weeks, the songs in their head.. kau gadisku yang cantik.. lalalala. and thats what he sings when he thinks of me.. thats what he said.

And he told me.. the shopping malls there so empty, its like social life ends at 10 pm there.. and one shopping mall, one cinema in the whole country. when he and hykel is at one of the shops, a girl who worked at this shop wants to kenal2 with him.. and he gave his email address. i am not surprised that girls want to get to know him lah.. but i'm cool with it. cos i know mr a is very curious guy. since the girl is brunei-an, and he is a singaporean.. they exchange stories about life in brunei and singapore rite? but i dunno how far they will go.

Then, we sat at starbucks... mr a is so craving for caramel frappie. very well then.. strabucks it is! while we seating and.. chilling, suddenly..

him: "IWILLSURVIVE. patience is a virtue. you never realize it was you" what does it mean?
her: its from a song
him: what song?
her: from a song lyrics
him: yah, what song?
(den i realized i was not good at explaining)
her: i will survive is from a song.. patience is a virtue is, you have to be patient in order to wait or 2 wks lah. and you never realize it was you i sumthing that i made up
him: okay...
her: lah, its just random things that i came up with while chatting with my frens. my pm's are always ever-changing. i can just change anytime, even if in the middle of conversations at msn
him: (nodding his head)

Phew! he found the explanation acceptable. wah! actually mr. a, the pm i about you. its about on how i will survive on being patient & telling myself that patience is a virtue while i have to wait 2 weeks cos of you.. and i dun want you to realize that i'm waiting all day by day for your return.i couldn't just say these words right in front of you rite.. cos these words are hard to say, especially if it happens to be the words from heart.

One thing bout him,.. i notice he likes to read my pm's (personal messages) at msn. Always, and always, and ALWAYS.. have been noticing it right from the very start when we began chatted. He's standard question is.. "what is your pm suppose to mean?" and even if we meet, he'll brought up abt my pm's questions to an issue.. with the fact that he memorized the quotes that i wrote as my personal message.. at the end of the day, i will end up thinking.. why does my pm at msn concerns you so much? like evrytime you have to ask what does it mean?

And plus.. are these purely coincidences..
1) he wore baby blue t-shirt with pink wordings.. - OMG! i have this email add, babyblue_pink@yahoo.com when i was in sec school.. cos i love baby blue with pink colour last time..
2) he wore adidas watch.. - Lucky i nv wear mine. if not, it will be like the same.. but diff colour. and we end up looking like couple if i happen to wear it rite? nonononono.

After the whole thing otw home.. he said nce to c u aftr such a long tme.. :) anw wantd to tell u tis, u look gorgeous.. hv a safe ride home.. and my reply to him.. where got gorgeous, u dun merepek lah.. cos u nv c me for so long, that y gorgeous.if u c me everyday confirm jelak. haha.

I dun wan to say nice meeting you too, nice meeting you after so long too.. cos mr a, you're my fren. special fren. love feelings aside.. until we both know that we are ready and will dedicate life to each other. till den, hv fun and social life baby! (: Oh sheesh.. and tmr, i'm having a pool game with guy frens! haha.. and its not with mr a.

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Class chalet was so fun! so many food.. yes yes.. FOOD. chicken wings, hot dogs, crab meat, prawns, squids, satay, otak-otak, yummy licious.. oh yes, drinks.. sprite.. crysanthemum tea, green tea.. agar jelly pon ade.. and the menu for the day.. stingray!! Sungguh SEDAP.. Bbq was held at aloha resort. 4 sleeping rooms.. one big kitchen.. 2 bbq pit, one big dining room.. one big living room. no wonder the name of the chalet is bungalow.. haha. super fun.. super nice. more pics on facebook. in the mean time.. enjoy the donuts.. and these two people who got nuthing to do in the last train of day, on the way home..

Ohs, dbi0607.. im so gonna miss u guys as a class. glad to know pple like u guys! farhanah! i spent 3 years with you liao.. see you everyday in schoooool.. Spontaneous classmates. Crazy classmates sumtimes. Smart classmates too. Cool classmates. hahaha. you'll be missed. yes, thats the first and the last class gathering.. good job guys. its time to say goodbye. dun forget to tag each other in facebook kays! thats the only memories left as a class.. with all the pictures taken just nw. ok, dun emo now. hahahaha.

1 more day left. to friday.. and sumhow. i felt nuthing. am i excited, am i scared, am i worried, am i happy that he's finally back.. whatever happens, happens. i'm living life the way as it is now. enjoy first! before you really get into serious stuff like being a workaholic or real adult. 21 this yr! oh no.. i want to feel youthful for now. wait! i'm feeling youthful.. sara just turned 20 less than 2 mths ago.. hahaha. JUST TURNED 20. yeah baby! (:

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I dreamt of him.

No not late bf, but him.
For 2 consecutive days.
Oh no.

Will it mean anything.. Shucks!

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I realized I never want anything else.

I just want my life back.
How I wish everything could just went on smoothly.
I don't want to leave a person broken hearted.
I don't want to leave another person unhappy.
Life is complicated..
Love, is even more complicated.

Love..
It is all you ever need,
to make the world goes round and round.
Making everything seem so perfect.. so wonderful.
But love too..
It can destroy you.
Leaving your life shattered to pieces.

I've tasted it. Trust me.

So, be careful when you fall in love.
Be extra careful.

There you go,.. some words for thoughts. (:

P.S: A Very Very Super Big

THANK YOU

Fawze and Lynn ..
for the listening ears at msn.
felt a whole lot better now.

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ask me do this. ask me do that.
without even realizing whether i know or not.
pathethic.

i am good for nothing.
fc*k life.

I said I will survive!

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or rather pretty hot husband and wifey. hehehe.

Okay.. i'm done being talkative for today. random post ah.. talking about random things.. random stuffs.. lagik, ade ape2 lagik random. lol. watch he's just not that into you tmr!! sooon, yay! here i come to the movies baybeh. (:

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My very own creation. Yay!

Oohs. Thank you mummy for accompanying me.. went all the way to MOM.. Ministry of Marriage! Joking.. haha. Ministry of Manpower lah.. and Tanjong Pagar. Applied Statistical Executive (Collection). Applied HR Executive.. But the manager redirected me to Financial consultant. all because y? i did a personality test, and the result happens to say i am a talkative person.. and admin job is less suitable. a chatty bubbly personality.. i am! just like what i was told before.. by who? mr a lah. (: plus.. i've tried considering teaching career (English & P.E).

Results to be shortlisted: 2 weeks time.. scared. *Cross fingers.

Didn't manage to go Bedok fair career. bad weather today and never bring umbrella.. ella, ella eh eh. Home sweeeeeet home.

For today, bear with me if i am talkative kays. hahahaha. you know... i'm not sure if i can wait or cannot wait for it to be next fri.. sometimes, i have this feeling to just sleep today, wakes up tmr.. and then tadaaaa! its friday, yay! well, all i know is,.. i am kindda dying to know what mr a will do when he got back to singapore. just when the thoughts in my head kept thinking.. will he call or msg me first... he will msg or call first? cos let me tell you this, msg and call tells different stories.. my theory of explanation is.. after 2 weeks of not meeting and smsing, if a guy calls you.. he would prolly let you know that he misses you and would love to hear your voice cos he misses you.. and that's something.

But if msging you is the first thing on his mind.. and den calling you comes second.. this means maybe he is just coming back for you just for the sake of coming back to you? thats where the negative sides can comes in when you'll be asking yourself and doubting if he really likes you. i sounds pretty paranoid rite? lol. all cos i watched he's not into you.. the show stuffs like "if he's not calling you".. means bla bla bla. "if he's not marrying you".. means bla bla bla. i'm a lil amazed how guys can make girl thinks so much on little2 things that he did.

Sheeesh! i watched the show halfway. sumhow it got stucked.. sumthing sumwhere not working rite. Nadiah! Date me on mon kays.. i so want to watch the show in the movies. 4.25 pm, AMK hub. haha. yeah baby!

Maybe i just need time for you to prove yourself.. & for me to prove myself. that everything is worth being proven.. worth to wait for.

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Life's pretty silent now.. pretty lonely i guess. What I've been doing is sleeping early, wake up early. Back to square one. Wake up, switch on comp.. on the net. Then end up whole day skipping meals.. early morning ate bread to survive the whole afternoon.. evening when mum reach home, i will then eat my dinner. Don't be surprise if i'm getting skinnier. hahaha. i know lah my cheeks now chubby liaoz. Oh wells.

Today's friday. and i'm not even looking forward for the weekends. i'm super free.. but go where? with who? someone's close is just too far away. eversince mr a fly off.. doesn't mean i have no life rite? haha. dunno lah. i was just remembering some thoughts.. flashback on msn..

she: hello!
him: hey sexy
she: hey not sexy
him: merajuk lah
she: ok, i'm the "hey not sexy" and you're the "hey sexy" cn?

hahaha. im back using my phone now.. after few days of using nina's phone. i'm loving my phone!! wooo-hooo. but kindda sad. haha. i still kept his last few msgs before he fly off.. and when i read back. its like i'm missing a piece of a jigsaw puzzle. oh no! maybe i should just forget all about the msgs and delete it straight away! lalala..

1 week more to go.. jeng jeng jeng. i will survive! you're last few words were.. b countg e days to mt u.. :) everydy i'l be thinking of u.. miz u siti sara.. rmbr tis, i'l cum back 4 u.. :) meanwhle u b my gd gurl n tc k. awwwwww. and what m i doing now? i'm being a lazy bump at home. i'm suppose to go out and find job.. but den, i still haven done so sey. silly girl. Let me c if i should doubt ur words mister. cos its only 2 mths we know each other. i'll wait and c.. if ur words are true.. and if you're being true to urself. in the mean time, take care of yourself.

Happy doing what you're doing guys! :D Let's hit the movies baby..

When the bedtime stories he told his niece and nephew, starts to magically come true.
Super interesting story. haha. but typical, cos there will always be the bad guys right? Imagine if your imaginations and stories that were told today will come true tmr! and hey, if its your story.. your life.. it depends on how you want to end it. Be in control. (: Power to the people! hahaha.

Ben Thomas, an IRS agent.. changed the lives of seven strangers.
Very very very touching. Ben Thomas.. I Love You! Ooops.. Hahaha. Okay mr. a, you even got jealous when i said i love taufik! lol.This Ben Thomas, he is such a very good man. Donated eyes,.. heart.. liver, bone marrow, house.. your heart is truly made of gold young man. (: I like the story line pretty much.. and the way he suicide.. in bath tub with jelly fish in freezing cold water!

It just makes me wonder.. if only i could have the chance.. to even knew that late bf had an inflammable heart or so in advance, maybe i would have given him mine.. for him to live longer, for him to achieve his dreams and goals in life... shhhh. sara. what's done is done.

NEXT:

The story of Benjamin Button,.. a man who starts aging backwards with bizarre consequences.
I dun wanna miss The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. Yeah, I know you girls kept on saying Brad Pitt's hot. hahahahaha.

I super want to watch He's just not that into you!!! Faster faster.. Let me watch sooooon. Hahaha. Well in the mean time.. while my movies await for me, i shall go for serious job hunting. and i seriously mean it. haha. hopefully,.. insya-allah if there's rezeki.

Good night, sweet dreams.

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Spent my day.. FACEBOOK-ING. Perhaps, sometimes.. it just do make sense.. when life goes on according to the music you're listening to.. maybe, its just perhaps and sometimes.

Here goes..

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Run - Leona Lewis

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Forgive Me - Leona Lewis

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I Love You Goodbye - Nina

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Hot N Cold - Katy Perry

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
You & I Both - Jason Mraz

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Someone To Love - Shayne Ward

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Trust Me - The Fray

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Stranger - Hilary Duff

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Broken Strings - James Morrisson Feat. Nelly Furtado

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Undiscovered - Ashlee Simpson

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Calling You - Kat DeLuna

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
I Don't Care - Fall Out Boy

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I am killing time with organizing musics in my comp.
haha. no life?

How to enjoy life man. seriously.
i'm running out of ideas..

i woke up at 8 am, when i slept at 8pm yesterday.
where i've survived with bread and tuna
as my breakfast, dinner, lunch.
maybe i want to lose weight?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

*All the Single Ladies, now put your hand up..
Oh, Oh, Oh. Single Ladies (Put a Ring on it) rules my world. (:

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the 4th day is today.

omg.

dun tell me i am literally counting the days.
haiz. 14 - 4 = 10 more days to go...
right.. i am really counting.
seriously counting..
life seems pretty quiet now. haha.
no calls yet frm those jobs i applied online.
will take a look at the newspaper.

see my faces interviewers!
hopefully, employ me.. and i'll be a good employee.
i seriously dunno what to do now.
it seems like i'll be at hm all the way.
sob sob sob. :(

p.m.s ah? everything just doesn't seem right.
oh crap. patience sara.
i've discovered something today.
was friendster hopping.
and i saw there's this blogspot link in a profile.
so i went to visit.

some gf is missing her bf.
having hard time dealing with friendster testi,
all by her bf ex-gfs sent. and where is her bf?
he'll be back in 2 weeks time.
awwww. how sad.

call me a kay-poh lah.haha.
well, i somehow find her story interesting.
must have been hard on her.
wait, dun tell me her bf went to brunei too!
2 weeeks!!! could it be.. hmmmmm.
my thoughts wanders around.

are you thinking what i'm thinking?

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i didn't ask for late bf to go away frm my life.
i hv never expect to see myself wearing a permanent tudung,
even before i reach the age of 19.
if late bf had been alive right now..
things won't be the same rite?
i would still be wearing knee length skirt..
knee length dresses.. shorts.. t-shirts..

i think you'll never understand.
if you want me to give u privacy..
just say it and do whatever it takes..
even if you have to force me.
shooing me away from your room.
all i had to do is to borrow ur freaking room mirror.
to try on clothes to town.
but if you want me to get out of the room,
no need to go the extra mile to comment,
on something that you dun like.
cos, i dun need you to.

but dun ever say a remark,
that is so powerful enough
to make me angry.
to make me cry.
made me think of late bf..
that actually hurt me so bad.

maybe you just dun care.

you are in the world of your own.
but dun get me involve, dun criticize me,
dun pass judgement.. when you had a bad day.

because you have no idea on what you just said, sister.

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Just finished online.. but somehow it felt weird. i felt weird. just weird. neutral feeling is there. happy feeling not there. i dunnoe.. cos i felt sumhow that he's trying too hard i guess. and he seems super busy with police ns-ing for now. Well, i appreciate loads you make the effort to stay awake for short while though you woke up at 4.45 am just now.. and have to wake up at maybe 4.45am again later.last minute police attachment and 6.30 am at yew tee? sucks rite. haha, on v day some more. yeah tell me bout it.

I mean.. i dunnoe.. in the middle of conversation, there's this when you said "btw just to let you know, i met with an accident last week" i know i am suppose to be concerned, shocked. naturally i am cos of the accident word. but when u said - btw, just to let you know, in the middle of our conversation.. i'm like what? did you just said 1) btw just to let you know.. 2) met with accident 3) it happen last week! are you like seeking attention or what.

Am i being the problematic one? i dunnoe. tell me.

You have my number.. you can just sms me anytime.. but wait till msn, den you let me know? i dunno if i remember you being like that before.. if i nv msn, den nv tell ah? but y wait till msn den tell. might as well meet me in few yrs down the road den tell rite.. Though i knew you eversince sec school, bt till now i cn nv understand. i did try to understand, but it still takes time? haha. every little thing that you did sumhow seems to have great impact on me. like the words you said.. the things you do.. its super formal lah.

There, i've said it. for now, i just dun like the idea on how things are not going naturally. i can see you're trying hard to show you're feelings, but issit getting more obvious all cos after you knew late bf has gone away den you start all this? i dunno. i used to felt it. but when i c you try too hard.. i find something is wrong sumwhere. i dunno.

If the girl were to found another love again while waiting.. how? must she still get caught up again between new love and him.. must this continue? she dun want history to repeat itself. cos she will be then caught up in a triangle all cos of him. we are getting old, and we mature. she have to eventually decide and she dun wants to hide any guys or anything from him anymore. it will all be just truths.

No, i'm not comparing him with mr.a. Happy Valentine's day to you too.

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aku takot.. i'm left with this scary feeling inside. look at the time. nearly 1am. and i haven finished studying. ape nk jadi nie?

exam later starting at 12.30pm. but so much things to cover. 7 topics left.

o-oh. please please..oh please. help! i'd like to ask for a miracle cn? haha. be serious sara. gtg!

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Earlier this morning i blogged about him. and after he offline at msn. i cannot sleep. ive been wondering y he's so quiet.. and at msn also i nv tegur him. he nv tegur me at all. bottomline is, he knows im online.. i know he's online. but we nv do anything about it. nv msged. and so.. i changed my msn pm to..

"ShutUpAndLetMeGo - Colour my life with or without you"

In the end, i made a decision. to msg him.. making my point that he's so quiet and asked him to leave. i want this silence things to stop. cos seriously, if u wanna be frens with me.. and regard me as a fren.. just dun keep urself silent.. TOO SILENT. it only make me feel i dun exist. finally, i manage to found out the reason y.

He claims to say that he's upset with me going out with my bestie. on thurs he told me he's gonna has a fri nite off. he wants to meet me, but i ended telling him i will be busy on his nite off day with projects cos Entrepreneurship Day presentation on sat morning. and i take this presentation very seriously lah. so, i need the whole day to pepare myself with school. reasonable rite?

Den next thing, he realize i nv go out with him on his nite off day.. but make plans to go out with fafa after i'm done with presentation instead. so he assumes i got time for fafa but not for him. den worst still, i told him i end up shopping instead of studying at starbucks. with this to him, my actions make him realize that bestie comes first den special frens. and make him understand where he stands.

Because of this we had this arguement.. but he seems to cool off after i explain things out.

"I like the way u handled our so called arguement. Dun worri its nuthing. I just wan to know if we get into a quarrel how its gonna be like" (yarr rite)

And today, i found out he booked out yesterday and booked in tonite. u merajuk lah tu.. nv tell me. i thought we are suppose to be open and honest.but its like affecting both parties pretty bad. i have to found out myself when i sign in msn that he's booked out when i die2 thought he's at camp. but haha, i've figured we dun need to tell each other so much everything about us yet.let's play dirty?lol. at the end of the day.. it hit him hard when i asked him to leave me. he did ask about my pm.. and i explain everthing on hw i feel. i'm mentally prepared to let you go.

Well, let the matter rest for now. dun think too much. continue to study. Jia you!

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i really need someone close to me badly.
to make forget about late bf.. help me move on with life.
cos everytime when i'm alone.. things start to haunt me back,
and i dun want to cry as much as i'm missing late bf now.

because..i'm beginning to understand that he is my past.
and whatever has happen between me and him..
its only meant to last for a while. and not for my entire lifetime.
i really really want to move on with my life now.

you'll be always in my loving memory. my one and only ayang.

yes, i was happy yesterday. the happiest person alive.
and yes, i am sad today. the saddest person alive.
happy because i went shopping with fafa. sad because of him. asshole.

i thought i was strong to be in love again. and now i think i am not. ur silence prove me i was wrong.

let me say this..
you can just do whatever you want.
whatever you like. just dun make me found out things on my own please.
i'm not strong enuff to tolerate.. when you're just keeping quiet.
be it if its on purpose or not. worst still..
my heart splits open when i got to know..
i happen to be online. and guess what! you're online too.
at 1 am? yarr rite.

hello. how are you?who are you? i dunno you.

just dun make me say it, that you're not the one for me.
cos by then i will not be looking back.
and my last words will be goodbye.

*eversince the day i taught myself to be stronger..
i am getting emotionally weaker.

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Yes!! Finally.. i manage to fix my blog. Hahaha. Presenting my new user pic.. (:

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