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Fine!!! I am so in a bad mood rite now. Cos you know why..

Firstly, when i started sch today is already bad! i waited 1 hr for the bus to arrive for me to get to school. Lesson starts at 10.20.. i reached school at 11.04am. Super big thanks ah to the bus. Where fair!!! urrrgh! & when the bus reached the bus stop, 4 buses came at one shot! whats wrong with the bus sia. like the buses body guard each other. when one bus reach, the other 3 buses must reach together. CRAP lor. annngggrrrry.

Since today is the last day of 2008, and i'm in a bad mood.. i tried to cheer myself up lah. so i went to do some shopping! thought that my shopping is urgent so that i can cheer up myself when i bought stuffs that i really2 like. want to see? haha.

how does my shopping for today goes like? I start from school.. den i went home. den frm home i went to tampines.. to expo's POPULAR and METRO sale. whoo-hooo! From there i went to city hall.. cos i thought i like a tote bag at U.R.S inc (citylink) .. den suddenly changed my mind that the bag is not nice. went to robinson and bought a bag!! hahahaha.

so from here my mood was cheered for a while.. until i open my group's report for editing cos of a presentation this fri. and my reaction? what the crap la!!! i dun even understand what my fren is writing ah. another big thanks okay.. for making today so miserable. yah man,i am in a complete seriously bad mood right now. cheer up sara, cheer up sara, CHEER UP SARA!

before i forget, happy new year people!

Labels: new year

i can't explain what i am feeling inside this heart of mine.
i just leave all my answers to time.

i dreamt of him yesterday. sounds weird. in the dream shows that i met a guy and hang out with him. and whatever pictures i took, with or without the new guy.. late bf will be there in the pic. exactly the way when you take picture of yourself having fun. the next moment, when your picture is developed.. you know your late bf is in it and smiling too.. and having fun too like you do. well.. i dunno. sounds pretty weird. its more frustrating that when i dream this kind of dream.. i am trying too hard to find answers. like what does the dream mean exactly? is it a sign?

Labels: when i dreamt of you

i think i rather live in a world with no one instead.
because when u fall in love..
it could hurt you more than anything else in the world.
the pain that your heart has to go through.
it's just seriously unbearable.
it's better to think of nuthing than the people whom u love.
because when you misses your love,
there's nuthing that you need and want except for them.
Nothing, except them.
But when they couldn't be there for u more and more..
that's just way too bad. that's just way too sad.
either i am too happy to be sad..
or i am too sad to be happy.

exams and assignment submissions are just ard the corner.
major presentations week's at week 17.
less than 5 weeks more to complete my unfinished work.
thats scary..
soon after that final year examinations.
soon, it will be bye bye.

Labels: life is the way it is, School life in NYP

4 am! and i woke from my sleep just now.
Can u imagine this.. i tried to sleep at 1am.
but I just can't. And finally i got of my bed at 3.30 am.
Maybe blogging can help to kill some time.
Forcing myself to sleep is a torture okays.
Why can't i sleep? Thanks to late nites during the school holiday.
Later my lesson starts at 9am. SPLENDID!
And now i am sumhow hungry. :(

So yeah, i am finally 20! Its not that i want to be 20 but its my birthday!
Yay! which was like yesterday. awww. Can i wish for my birthday to be everyday now? Cos it has been great! Hehe. Thank you Shankar and Lynn for double wishes. Farhanah, Syidah, Fawze, Kai Ting, Daud (my-working-at-j.codonut-colleague), my uncles and aunties, families.. for the wishes too. And some pple whom i dunno who wished me.. thanks to ya too!

When its 28th December 2008 i should go out and celebrate my b'day rite? Well, all i did was just go to jemputan with my mummy. Nobody accompany my mummy.. so i went with her. after that go causeway point and amk hub. by 6 went home. But it doesn't ends here.

I went to watch movie.. YES MAN! Haha. I gave it a very good rating. Because you gonna so have a good laugh throughout the show sey! Seriously.. nice nice nice.

Fafa is in Vietnam now.Happy Vacation Fafa! Miss you already gf!

Labels: singing happy birthday to you

Hi, i'm updating! Haha. I think i had lots of fun. I haven open my pretz yet.and by the time i post this blog, the clock have striked midnite.

When i left the house to meet my gerls,i just feel so down. I mean i was late. maybe deliberately late? it took me quite some time to get ready. like really, 1 hr plus to get ready. i dunnoe. i feel like no mood. so they reached orchard at 2 pm. i reach at like 3 pm? haha. they booked the karaoke at 2.30pm. and this cash studio is pretty strict abt timing ya know.

so they went first. while me, i just meet and join them in the karaoke room itself. the moment when i reach i'm like.. how come there's no canned drinks being served? so this fafa sweetie said.. "canned drinks will be serve later".. den i'm like okay.. when i look at my surroundings, haha! sure thing the karaoke pple will suprise me with the cakes and drinks rite. Because one thing i learnt when i celebrate b'days with my gfs, we always have cakes. But now its missing!

so yah, i just continue to stay normal.i mean the more i predict, the less surprise it will become.and as im singing, these two dearest best fren was talking behind my back. i'm like looking but they just pretended nuthing happen. like obviously?

Haa. soon came this birthday cake of mine!



and so, sing the birthday song, and they fed me. so touched! thought that counts lah sey.

-PS: if you can hear me now. i feel so happy that i want to share all my stories with you. but i feel sad too at the same time. i wish i could share whatever stuff that has just happened.. too many excitement! too many descriptions. too many emotions. too many surprise. i really would looove to share my everything. but i know you're there listening and watching me.

i'm still loving you. thanks peeps for encouraging me not be sad. i try to be as happy ok.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Labels: singing happy birthday to you

lol. i just hope all is well, ends well. maybe they organizing surprise thing or so. maybe maybe maybe. will update soon. haha. Stay tune.

-love is a weird thing. who am i in love with? have i fallen for anybody.. or is it just an infatuation. lets sleep, 4 am now. Toodles!

Labels: School life in NYP

Tmr will be sort of a big day for me but den all i'm feeling now are miseries..

I'll be celebrating my 20th birthday in advance together with my gfs tmr.. but somehow NOW i'm not feeling excited. i think i am suppose to feel excited as it will be a day of fun.. gerekness.. and craziness.. but den again.. i am just plain upset i guess. Come on lah, i dun even know what to wear tmr! I can't even think what to wear. it's my b'day celebration and of course i want to wear sumthing nice.. but its like i feel whatever i wear, whatever i choose to wear is not what i want to wear. Tahlah.. naseb, naseb.. Naseb badan..

The thought of my birth date lingers in my head. its like thinking two years ago when i was attached to late bf.. that this year's 28th dec is supposedly to be our two years anniversary.. 2 years? thats the longest so far that i could longed for.. but IT NEVER HAPPEN. i kept on telling myself.. consoling myself. But i am afraid. That i will still cry and be sad all over again. Cos the thought of him proves that i am missing him sooo much. Oh dear.

If you could hear me now.. hear my heart speaks.. calling out for your name. Just to be with you once and spend all my time with you all over again. I've never felt as hopelessly devoted.. and truly in love.. and i'm truly missing you. Oh nonono, i shall not be in tears now. sometimes i just want to tell myself to be busy with life.. to keep myself occupied.. or maybe to think that some other guys in my life could replace you. that i am not meant to be with you.

Because eversince the day you are gone, i felt like i am missing my everything. i need someone to talk to, to go out with, to joke with, to be in love with, to be angry with, to do my everything with. GREAT! and to top it all off.. i just received a msg from one of my gfs whom i actually regard as my best fren.

sun is my b'day and tmr is all we have to celebrate it. she'll meet me at 2pm and have to leave by 6 plus. like what the hell.. might as well u no need to go out with me rite. last year, she forgot my birth date! and surprised me with a $10 dress frm bugis which i already have, as a birthday present. i actually bought that same freakin dress with her lah sey except for that its different in colour.. and NOW, THIS YEAR.. she's telling me she can only spare 4 hours of her precious time with me, where 3 hrs we are using it to karaoke. thats not even a birthday celebration.

THIS IS WHAT I CALLED GET IT OVER AND DONE WITH. dah start celebrate petang, abeh nk cepat2 alek. i dunno what i am to you. but this is obviously what you treat me as a fren rite? what a great fren u are, BEST FRIEND. Because i just feel like teling you, "forget it, there's no need for celebration. you go do ur stuff".

& ALL I WANT TO DO IS SCREAM AND SHOUT. it's like i'm living a stupid life.

- who am i gonna pour all my heart aches to? oh blog.

Labels: life is the way it is

Today is X'mas! Merry Xmas everyone. Yuhooo. Iminaholidaymood. (:

I spent the whole day at home. Doing sum school work and editing pics. Lots and Lots and Lots of pixies. I'm gonna warn ya, this post is gonna be very long cos of the pics.. too many pics i guess. haha. stay at home more and more.. edit pix more and more.

So,.. here goes.

Yummy!

And so with these pics.. expected lah kan it will be all over facebook or frenster or even multiply. haha! (:

Happy holidays!

Labels: singing happy birthday to you

when i appear offline.. i saw u online..
but when i online, sumhow i saw u offline.
i feel like super weird.
but i never want to ask.
i felt like i want to msg u and say..
eh u just appear offline when i online?
but i think i will just make things super weird.

sometimes i cannot predict..
what you're thinking.
what you're saying.
why are we even friends.
what makes our friendship stays till so long.
you just make me wonder more and more.
am i that really special to you?
or am i just an ordinary girl..
which is which? you sometimes make me dun understand.

now i feel like edward cullen from Twilight.
the moment where he is trying to figure out what bella is thinking.
cos seriously.. i cannot predict what you want, what you need, what you love..
what you're thinking.
it gets really frustrating.. (Edward Cullen, now i know how u feel mr vampire.)

cos you've always made me asking questions to myself.
made me speak too many things to my heart.
speaking too many things in my mind.
i dunno, i just feel super weird.
like the moment you can make me feel like im flying..
happily flying with cheery colours.
and the next moment, i can see that i'm angry.
because of sumwhat you did.
angry for no reason?
maybe its just super weird to like you?
well i dunno.. thats not a question for me to answer.

But perhaps its for time answer.
Niwei, i hang out at orchard. played pool. 10 -2.
who's 10, who's 2?
stay tune to find out.

(Haha. like real only you'll found out if you stay tune)

Labels: life is the way it is

23 December is Nina's Birthday! Hehe. Only on the night of his 23rd decemnber i bought ice cream for her. as a b'day gift. haha. i bought it after the whole outing. imagine at city hall just now i also saw nina! haha. at the mrt. small world.she's hanging out with her frens. i am hanging out with my frens.

When i reached home frm outing with frens,.. ingatkn nk celebrate b'day nina with the ice cream.. and the card that nadiah make for nina.. skali kena saboed! i bought 2 ice creams cornetto royale lah.. den nadiah say one is for nina, one for her. the one that she say is for her,.. she coloured my face with the ice cream! hehe.

Nadiah gave me a card too! so sweet! happy birthday to us! mwaah. i love you sisters. though sumtimes i want to scream and shout at you guys.. for using sum stuffs that we share..like clothes.. make ups.. bags.. i just love you guys like blood sisters does. mwaaah!

Labels: my lovely sisters, singing happy birthday to you