♥ Here's How It Goes: The Part 2. ♥
Wednesday, July 29, 2009 ( 11:58:00 PM )
I can't sit still and wait for him to tell me whats wrong. So I asked him..
S: come on, tell me whats wrong
A: i dunno.. i just feel that u cant be bothered lidat..
S: WHAT!?
A: i mean the things u said makes me feel like u cant be bothered la
S: huh! what did i say that makes me can't be bothered?
A: " thats nt fair, oh well, i cn only try.. but its up to you to believe rite.. its alright i understand" (as qouted from earlier msn conversation)
S: i told you once, its hard to change ur mentality.. cos i feel that if you feel you dun believe me, den it means you don't believe me
A: thats what you think
S: nothing i say or do would change that
A: if you try hard enough u'll succeed
S: yah cos i've done that before and it won't change a thing
A: but its ok, i know you wont.. u rather let it be right?
S: i'll only give time to prove you wrongS: tell me, what should i do what can i do
A: i wont tell you what u shud or shudnt do. just do what u think is right
S: answer me this y should i make you feel that i do bother when you dont think i bother. its like you're always thinking the opposite of what i'm doing. and when i've already tried to prove you wrong, it seems that i just gotta try harder and harder and harder and harder. trying too hard can get me really tired. when the truth is, you won't even see that i m already trying and thats what purely heartbreaking
A: its either i think ur not trying hard or not at all, or u think u tried too hard thats y u just gv up easily
S: because i dun like trying too hard
A: prolly thats the reason
S: but the point is, here i am trying too hard and you're thinking that i have to try harder and harder and harder and harder and harder
A: weird u mention u dont like to try hard.. but ur saying u alrdy did?
S: just what is ur point.. that i am nt trying too hard at all.. that i dun even try.. that i dun even bother about you.. that i dun even care. i..
A: .?
S: haven't i said enuff? i dunno what to do anymore
A: u seem angry.. are you?
S: no, heartbroken
A: dont be..
S: y shouldn't i? when the guy thinks i'm not even trying, when i've already struggle to try. and the guy even thinks i'm not bothered, when inside my heart i really do bother a lot!
A: baby.. angry ehh?
S: like i said, what you want me to say or do? pretend like nuthing has ever happen? i dunno lah u
A: lets drop the subject k
S: i won't drop the subject unless its already settle
A: ok lets settle it then
S: just what is the problem.. what's wrong?
A: cool down first then we talk.. ok, firstly
A: i already mention..i just felt that you cant be bothered.. the way u said things and the reaction u gv me.. i dunno why.. prolly im asking too much.. or u not trying hard enough.. im just not convinced, thats all.. be it anything.. but its ok, if its the way ur handling things, i'll just accept it
S: what if i tell you that i feel the same way too
A: you urself said u dunno what to do
S: the thing is, i also felt that you can't be bothered. the way u msg me and the things that u do
A: i hope u saying it not to spike me
S: im not spiking.. thats what i feel too
A: and they say time doesnt wait for you.. u have to make things happen
S: nah, im the person who waits. bt i still dun get it, y u said im nt even trying.. which part of us, that you want me to show you that i'm even trying
A: be honest n open w me, just let me know what ur feelings inside
S: abt what specifically?
A: u see, example, if i nvr talk about this, u'll keep it to urself
S: because i think if this is the way you're going to work, den i'll just keep up with ur phase lah.. i follow according to the flow
A: then i guess ur not being urself
S: i am being myself... there, you're starting it again
A: why not just tell me and we sort things out?
S: cos i tknk once i dah bebual, i got carried away and you got me thinking that i'm a crazy girl who likes you. haha, im not convince bout ur feeligs
A: "you got me thinking that i'm a crazy girl who likes you" this part i like.. convincing
S: its not funny, im serious
A: and i am serious... if ur a crazy girl who likes me.. then i know that u really like me... for now its kinda vague
i dunno your feelings either
S: and i dunno your feelings either. its weird sumtimes. when i think that i should let you know that i like you but we're just frens kindda thing.. i dunno, i feel restricted that i should let you know that i'm the crazy girl sumhow. and when i feel that you're not the crazy guy who likes me, thats y i dun show yet i am the crazy girl. its just that im not sure if the guy who likes me is crazy enuff as me
A: hahaha... so whats the solution now. i wanna hear it from you
S : u sure a nt? but i want to hear it frm you
A: then what u looking for
S: that i want to hear it from you if you're crazy for the girl, but instead you tell me you want to hear it frm me
A: im crazy for you..
A: heelllloooooo, now ur quiet... im being direct now
S: ok
A: ok aje..
S: den? im crazy for you too ok (:
A: hahah u always lidat.. i do then u do.. i say then u say. sometimes i dunno if u did or say because u mean it or u just go with the flow
S: u also what.. u wait for me to do, den u do.. den u wait for me to say, den you say.. u wait for me to msg, den u msg. u wait for me to say hi at msn, den u say hi
A: eh eh dear.. cute nye marah, hahahha. kenekan org alik ehhh...
S: haha, u pandai bebual tapi u pon same ok
A: tsk3 this girl uh
S: this guy ah buat i geram je!
A: hahah k lar leme bathe first.. i text you before i turn in. muahckz. miss you syg
S: isyh, u blum mandi!!!!
Labels: words that you said
♥ Here's How It Goes: The Part 1. ♥
Tuesday, July 28, 2009 ( 11:29:00 PM )
i fought with him. and i brokedown with tears when i am practically msn with him. because something is not right, it makes me upset. very very upset :( i almost wanted to give up and went mia from him. but i know that's not they way it's suppose to be. that's not the way that it would solve things. so yeah, i want him to get things settled by tonight, before we go to bed. no point dragging things here and there anymore.
His msn nick: You won't learn until you make a mistake.
Love.Sara says (10:10 PM): hello. what mistake u learnt?
X This Is Me says (10:10 PM): not to call you baby?
Love.Sara says (10:11 PM): urgh seriously?
X This Is Me says (10:11 PM): yup
Love.Sara says (10:11 PM): y
X This Is Me says (10:12 PM): u dont like mah..
Love.Sara says (10:12 PM): since when
X This Is Me says (10:13 PM): so ur telling me otherwise?
Love.Sara says (10:13 PM): its u who assume that i dun like rite. when did i say i dun like
X This Is Me says (10:14 PM): im asking you
Love.Sara says (10:14 PM): yes, im telling you otherwise
X This Is Me says (10:15 PM): not convincing
Love.Sara says (10:16 PM): how come?
X This Is Me says (10:16 PM): i dunno..
Love.Sara says (10:17 PM): thats nt fair. oh well, i cn only try.. but its up to you to believe rite, its alright i understamd
X This Is Me says (10:17 PM): thats what u call try? okay then
Love.Sara says (10:18 PM): then what u call try
X This Is Me says (10:19 PM): prolly ur not trying hard enough. but its ok
Love.Sara says (10:19 PM): okay..
Labels: words that you said
♥ Work, And More Work. ♥
Monday, July 27, 2009 ( 11:24:00 PM )
H-a-i-y-o!
Customers are looking for all the managers and the supervisors from all over the world!
Labels: i'm on the job
♥ New New New. ♥
Sunday, July 26, 2009 ( 10:19:00 PM )
He calls me baby at msn but I didn't reply. & the next thing I know, he's looking for me. Asking me if there's something amiss and that if I dun like him calling me baby anymore. Without even replying him, he has made a conclusion that he won't call me baby since I dun even like it. Haiyo, that guy ah. Well, the thing is I forgot to log off my msn before I went out of the house. Whatever msgs online, are left unreplied. He thinks negatively lah.
I went out with mum and aunty. Got myself a new phone finally. Samsung Jet. (:
Today actually there are suppose lots of plan for me. But I guess time doesn't permits me to do everything at once. I have to cancel my outing with Inah today because I thought I'll be visting late bf family and pay my respects at the cemetery. But just as when I was about to get ready, my aunt changed timing for my relatives to meet up. I have to forgo my plans and stick with my family for lunch time. By the time I reached Jurong, it will be late in the evening. I postponed to visit late bf again.
Labels: you're always be my baby
♥ Lotsa Things. ♥
Saturday, July 25, 2009 ( 11:51:00 PM )
i felt like crying. but i dunno the reason i'll cry.
Work is stressful.
I'd almost breakdown. customers are really asking for all the impossibilities. want discount here and there, so cheap skate. hello, you're already offered with a voucher and you want to ask for further discounts. go and fly kite can? we're already giving you $200 discount. and you're asking like for $400 discount! it's really giving me a hard time and pissing me off. i can't work in a noisy environment and i can't concentrate today. my mind is running elsewhere.
My bad influence.
I've been asking mr.a yesterday whether he'll go out with me today. My sunday is gonna be super busy. And I want to meet him. Since he's off day is today, and rarely gets off day on saturday.. y not just go out with me? it's hard for me to say.. or for me to describe. But what i felt is that when i asked you, it should be a simple reply yes or no. Again, i don't know what's on you're mind. You know i miss you. And you know you told me that you're missing me too. You know that i want to meet you, but i'm hearing nothing from you, unfortunately. No msgs, no hi, no bye. Our silence is purely golden.
What's done is done.
Tmr's supposed to be a pre-planned thing but its cancelled. And I wonder if I've already made a stupid mistake eversince. Prolly I am just dumb and stupid.. that's why my mistakes are stupid. I seriously don't want to break the friendship. He's very sincere, understanding, friendly and mature.. more than mr.a could ever be. But at the same time I couldn't keep this friendship. How could i go on when i'm already feeling guilty that my feelings are for mr.a. Yes, you can call me evil. That's why I put a stop to everything sometimes. Clearly you asked me out, I said no. Clearly when there's another outing, it seems we should go out in groups and not just the two of us. I don't know what I'm doing.
Imdreamingofyoualldayallnight.
I dreamt of late bf, again. Now he's there in my dream. Accompanying me wherever I go, and we hang out like all he couples do. But until the goodbye part, he's committing suicide by jumping off a river and drown himself. Somehow the moment I've realized it, I shouted "U.. U.. U!!" . I just want to make sure he'll don't drown. Oh Boy, I hope knows what he's doing. Only then after I realized he has survived from drowning in the river, I said.. "Why do you have to do all this when I've already waited for you so long" From there, I woke up when he kissed my forehead. Prolly he knows I'm not letting him go just yet.
After work, I met lynn. random.. we watch ndp with her fiance! thanks for inviting (:
Labels: when i dreamt of you
♥ Karaoke. ♥
Wednesday, July 22, 2009 ( 11:02:00 PM )
Karaoke. With Fafa & Kama & Fafa Bf & Shukri. (: Sing your heart out baby.Shukri has no plans. That's y I asked him along. He knows me and my gerls are going out. It's his off day, so yeah we went out. He is still the same guy who knows how to take care of a girl. We met at amk and ride the train to town from there. Pays for my meals, and when go hm time he sent me via cab frm amk mrt. I'm safe with him. I know, he's caring. But..I am suppose to finish work at 5pm sharp today. I came early ok. Unfortunately, 5 mins before I end work, I answered a call and it lasted for 35 mins! Damn. 5.30 i am suppose to reach town. And I end up stuck at work talking to an aunty. Thanks ah, ask me so much question. About lg arena , omnia II, n97, iphone. She asked the comparisons between these phones and what are my recommendations. I should have said that you could walk in to the shop to compare more on the features of the phone and the price and the stock and weight. Isyh! The worst part is, I don't think any of her question really does matter or necessary. I'm just patient enough to answer her politely.Talking bout handphones. I seriously think I need one too. My phone keep on saying inactive sim. And my phone cannot even play ringtone at times. How sad. It kept on saying "the sound cannot be played". Huh? Thanks to myself for dropping my hp in the toilet too much. :(Otw home, at the mrt. I saw the sephora gerls from ion. They're the ones who wanted to get to know mr a. My oh my. What can I say. Labels: all about having fun
♥ Don't Get Jealous. ♥
Tuesday, July 21, 2009 ( 8:51:00 PM )
New shoes. New Perfume. New Top. New Pants. It's shopping at time.
$47 *It's Great Bargain
I'm working.. and I love my shift this week. It's heaven baby. Haha. After work, I met fafa. It's a random shopping at Tampines. So much being a shopa-holic, I spend and splurge. Get this, get that. I see gorgeous stuff here and there. Haha. But the real thing is, after you shop a lot and you looked at your cupboard. Have you ever regret?
Buy want you need, not what you want.
I used to tell myself these wise words when I was shooling. But now, look at me. I'm eating back my own words. Help!
Labels: Random shopping
♥ My Monday Starts Here. ♥
Monday, July 20, 2009 ( 11:25:00 PM )
I AM LATE!! Work starts at 8.30am, BUT I reached at 9am. Haiyo.Him: Eh eh dear.. i finish work liaoz.. weee
Her: Haha hw come.. nt fair. dun playcheat lah u. U hv 10 mins b4 u officially ends ur shift
Him: I dunno.. Nth go back lor..
Her: haha okay. I'm at town chak! Hv safe journey hm. Rest well
Him: Oh u w hu? I'm done
Her: Alone lah. with who else
Him: Ooh i see, if u wan me to accompany just say
Her: I'm independent mah. but if you want accompany you cn just say.
Him: Wah action uh u.. I miss u.. Hahaha
Her: okok. meet lor
Him: I'm at taka
It's so totally unplanned. Dinner's fixed at sakura with me, him and his best friend. Just a short meet up for dinner kindda thing. Nothing much. Being with guys, there goes their guy talk. And funny too. Pompan sanggup sey bayarkan duit minyak tuk lelaki ngan bayarkan duit motor skali. Direct translation, girls are willing to pay for the guy's bike and petrol. omg. He says, kalau u sayang i u belikan i bike k. My turn now, kalau u sayang i u belikan i kereta k. Good Night.Labels: i'll live for a better tommorow
♥ My Life, Today. ♥
Sunday, July 19, 2009 ( 10:58:00 PM )
Let me get back to blogging again. I went missing-in-action people. and now i'm back. haha. (: Dun miss me too much. Lol. ok, back to serious updates.. work! im kindda hanging in there. The reason i go to work everyday mostly cos of i want to be employed and.. at least i have income to support myself. Shop Shop Shop. ooh my goodness. Sara has done lots of shopping. I better start saving NOW!! Someone help me to hide my atm card pls.. Hahaha.After I quarelled with him, things seem to be pretty normal now. Except for.. the mr a whom I used to know rarely msg start to msg me everyday. At least there is communication. Must it be after the misunderstandings and fights that we had, made us this way today? There's a saying.. fight make a relationship stronger. Well, he don't believe in that. But prolly I do, only my question is.. till how long will our communication get stronger?Okay, other than shopping.. work and mr. a that's how my life today. Haha. Well, I didn't msged him when I was working whole day. And he's having bike pract today. So at msn, he says.. where are you when i need you? Awww. Looking for me issit.Labels: words that you said
♥ Me And You. ♥
Sunday, July 12, 2009 ( 10:02:00 PM )
To make things better, I want to ask him out.
To meet him face-to-face, I want to talk things out.
At least things cn get settled today.
But it doesn't turn out on how I always wished it would.He's not free. I'm not free. When I'm free, he's not free. When he's free, I'm not free.Oh.my.gosh
I'm bz - working
He's bz - completing bike practicalLabels: i'll live for a better tommorow
♥ Shop And Fights. ♥
Saturday, July 11, 2009 ( 10:44:00 PM )
Met fafa. Went to SAM again! Bought a dress. Haha. Anna sui style baby. It's raining today, bad weather to shop and flea market. My shoes are wet! :( It's tiring. Even though I take mc, and ponteng work to go out with fafa instead.. life is still tiring. We played pool, and went to town in the earlier part of the afternoon. Our mission was to look for guys with flawless skin. Haha. I still don't get it, how to you go around and say.. OMG, flawless skin. Well, that's the secret between me n fafa. Shhhh.
Oh dear. I fought with him.. yes, I'm the trouble maker. Be prepared for World war III.
Labels: Random shopping
♥ About Today. ♥
Friday, July 10, 2009 ( 11:25:00 PM )
About mr a.It's a record! I didn't msg him this week. and it happens that he's thoughtful enough to msg me.. asking me with all the reasons y I didn't msg him. I told him - what's the point of me msging you don't reply. And he told me - what is the point of msging when you always reply late. -.- Well oh well, I just want to see how far you would not keep in touch with me. I'm geting stronger and I'm learning my life without you.About workI was doing OT this morning, and it seems just like I have to clear other people's shit. and other people has to clear my shits. Ooops, we make mistakes right. But when you're working, you can seriously get pissed off by the other depts. You wish to feel that you rather do all the job yourself and get it done yourself. Others are so unco-operative.About the shopping.Not to forget, there's the flea market at sam, and it's today! After work, straight away meet kama deary at 9.15pm - dhoby ghaut, take away mac and we're on our way to shop shop shop with our empty stomach. The thing about sara is, when she's hungry and she is rushing for time.. all she do is grab the food and go. Let's just grab and go. (: If you see someone eating french fries or filet-o-fish while walking ard town yesterday, that's me! haha. 3 tops in my closet.That's the end for today. Took the cab home, wash up, rest well and sleep. Nite Nite.Labels: late nights for my panda eyes
♥ He Said, She Said. ♥
Thursday, July 9, 2009 ( 11:58:00 PM )
I'm online. And you're online. There's no hi, there's no bye mr. a.You're waiting for me to say hi. I'm waiting for you to say hi.
He saidIt takes a loss before we found each otherShe saidHush Hush. Let's just do nothing about it - Ouch!His msn status is busy. & She changed her msn status from available to busy. Then only..
He said
I can't predict your next moveShe saidTick tock tick tock. ur time is running outHe said
Do what's best for youWe are exchanging our comments on msn nicknames, but we're not communicating. At last I said hi, when I sensed that you knew I'm online but you refuse to say hi. We seriously need to work on our communication. Spell it out loud clearly.. c-o-m-m-u-n-i-c-a-t-i-o-n. I'll remember this day, you went offline without saying bye. And whatever words i say.. confirm you'll say "iye ker" or "sure a not".. That's just words showing you're disbelieving in me. If trust doesn't exist in you about me, den forget it. There's no use of holding on. I ALMOST gave up you mister. I almost already did. I just dunoe why I kept holding on, till today.Labels: mr.a
♥ Ouch Ouch Ouch! ♥
Wednesday, July 8, 2009 ( 11:15:00 PM )
Q Calls! Please Be On Ready Mode.
That's what you'll receive in your e-mail inbox when there's lots of people calling in making enquiries. Haiyo. It's a pretty big headache. But nowadays, who cares? Haha. The Q calls are never ending. People would wait for 10-15 mins just for you to answer that call. Patient ah those people on q calls. Well.. an Iphone 3GS is like the biggest hit ever. Busy Busy for me. Busy Busy for Singaporeans on the kiasu-ness for these upcoming event. Haiyah!
I got to know Inah quitting today, hmmm. Gonna miss working with you babe! But nevertheless, lets hang out for dinner, karaoke and shopping k. Promish? Haha, no hurry. We've still got all the time in the world. I wish you all the best for job hunting okays. (:
Back to reality check now.. who cares about mr a? I need nt try so hard to tell him I like him.
I 'm on the relax mode now. I have problems understanding you I think. Because the more I'll try, the mor eI'll cry. And if you say that I gotta give you the reason to prove you wrong, the more I find that I should do nothing bout it. Yeah, I know. I may be the one whom you think that I am prolly the right one for you, when you first met me. But it still takes time to prove yourself that you're right. It takes time to prove that I am the right one for you. You're doubting me mr a. Just when you thought that I'm the demure and goody2 type who stays at home kind. I am not.
Well, I'm just gonna live my life now mr a. With or without you. Because I am stronger than what you think. I know I can live without a man for now. I will survive.. and I've survived. *Even though i'm thinking of you all day all night. - Oooh, That's just life right? Ouch!
Labels: I know what I want
♥ On My Off Day. ♥
Tuesday, July 7, 2009 ( 11:02:00 PM )
I'm off today. Do nuthing but sit and laze ard at home being a lazy bump bump bump. At least I manage to increase my high score for BEJEWELED Blitz at Facebook yeah! Haha. My lips is burning, the skin of my lips are peeling. It's a bit swollen though. Haiz, working here makes you fall sick easily. Its like for every month, I'll be taking 2 days mc. Haha! I can predict that more mc's and money flying for mc will be coming my way sey. Hmmm..
I thought I could visit late bf family today or prolly hang out with late bf sis. But looks like people are busy on weekdays. I really want pay my respects to late bf, but i got my menses first day. :( Oh yes! My dear shoppers, save your money and stay tune for the upcoming flea market. I am so going to the event this Fri & Sat hopefully. 7pm - 2am. I'll c u there flea marketers.
"Sometimes I wished, I'm leaving a care free life..."
Labels: blogging this blogspot
♥ Full Of Stories. ♥
Sunday, July 5, 2009 ( 10:56:00 PM )
I've just finished shopping.. AGAIN! Dropped by a flea market with fafa, this time round its @ haji lane. By hook or by crook.. must go! Haha. Fafa bought quite a few stuff i tell you. 2 belts for $5. 2 tops for $16. Haha. my shirts are 2 for $20, and branded rusty slipper for just 8 bucks! Rainy weather today. Nice to sleep, not really nice to hang out. But when it comes to shopping, who cares? Haha. Okay, save money time baybeh.As usual, I'm the late queen.. i flagged a cab from the office. And the taxi driver brought me all the way to pump his taxi gas first. Haha, it was raining and i needed some shelter. So I took the ride with him. Haha. Free ride, free aircon. After he's done, then only my taxi fare officially start. The taxi driver was super friendly. He shared his stories about being punched by a drunk passenger at st james ard 3.15 pm. As an effect, he has a swollen left jaw, and he passed me his x ray results from ttsh for me to read! Hahaha. (:Taxi Driver: Going bugis for shopping?
Me: Meet friends.
Taxi Driver: Meeting your friends? Bf?
Me: Best friend.
Taxi Driver: Shopping?
Me: Ya..
Taxi Driver: Waste money..
Me: Hahaha.
True enuff. The taxi driver knocked sum sense. Haha. Well, girls will be girls. Talking bout girl stuffs, my neighbours getting pretty chaotic. I think her bf came to the house losing control, breaking the stuffs in front of her main door. Police came down.. but bf is still cursing and swearing here and there. Scary.I knew I made a vow not to msg mr a. But me being myself, I can't seem to sit around and waiting for things to happen just like that. Therefore, I msged him. After much thinking through, I know we are neither here nor there. We're basically going nowhere. Then I msged him asking if he would give up on me one day. All he said is, why would i want to do that? There's no YES or NO answer. Eventually, I do knock some sense to him. He reflected on what I said and end up asking if I have plans to walk away from him. From there, we talked it out. Msged all the way till wishing each other good night. Well, thats all about me and him now. There's nothing more I expect from you. All I do hope is a better communication. Because that's what was drifting us apart.Labels: blogging this blogspot
♥ Shopping. ♥
Saturday, July 4, 2009 ( 11:26:00 PM )
I worked till 6pm.
Then I met Lynn at Bugis.
Haha. Eversince Tues I've been making my way to bugis.
Isyh, isyh. Seriously.
Let me know if you've found someone who has gone to Bugis more than I do.
Well, I bought a bag. Black & Gold. (:
Again, It's Shopping Time!
Lynn bought clothes, at the prices are worth it. Wooosh!
Lynn & Sara
Lynn
Sara
Labels: Random shopping
♥ Lately. ♥
Thursday, July 2, 2009 ( 3:47:00 PM )
Life has been so busy. Lots of things happen. Stay tuned for updates.
Friday, June 26, 2009 ( 10:29:00 PM ), Wednesday, June 24, 2009 ( 11:47:00 PM ), Friday, June 19, 2009 ( 2:48:00 PM ) *Updated
I spent my day afternoon updating this blog, yeah.. practically updating all the days and times that I've missed updating. Haha. Okay, today me and mumy went to geylang. Mummy was from work, and when she board the bus from her workplace, she called me to notify the bus plate number - to make sure i board the correct bus. I was suppose to wait at the bus stop. & me, being myself, i was late. -.- Haha. When mummy is reaching at our house bus stop, i am still under my block. Waiting for nadiah to pass me her mp3. wah..
I thought I'll miss the bus. But just as when I reached the bus stop, there's the bus! Run and run for the bus.. and the next thing I know, mummy alight from the bus. But the bus is there, and mummy is there so i board the bus and mummy board the same bus again! Hehe.
The atms today seems not to be working. Singaporeans too rich at this period of time. Ever since yesterday, atms have been going temporarily out of service or the atm couldn't dispense cash. Again, nevertheless, this is the period of time where its best to go shopping! With mummy, its the best time to shop for tudung! Haha. I bought 3 tudungs for $9. Not bad ah the price. Shhhh. *secrets!
And when I reached geylang's Singapore Post, guess who I saw. Lynn and her mum! Haha. Small world. I see you on Sat babe. Oh yes, it's mr a's first day at work today. If you guys saw him working at the ion orchard say hi to him ok. Haha. I msged him to sort of like get rid of the butterflies in his stomach but there's no reply. Come on sara, what's the point if you're msging him if he doesn't wish to reply you? That's 3 times already no reply.
That's all for today.
Labels: life is the way it is
♥ PFFFT. ♥
( 1:00:00 AM )
Love.Sara says (12:17 AM): isyh isyh iysh u haven sleep?
X This Is Me says (12:17 AM): i cant sleep
Love.Sara says (12:17 AM): how come.. need me sing u lullaby
X This Is Me says (12:18 AM): sleep during rainy nights shud be just fine hehe
X This Is Me just sent you a nudge.
Love.Sara says (12:18 AM): haha nudged? trying to keep me awake
You have just sent a nudge.
X This Is Me says (12:19 AM): hahah press wrongly...
Love.Sara says (12:20 AM): hahaha, let me kiss you and your tears away?
X This Is Me says (12:20 AM): big girls dont cry?
Love.Sara says (12:21 AM): i want to ask you sumthing
X This Is Me says (12:21 AM): ?
Love.Sara says (12:21 AM): wait ah..
X: let me kiss you and your tears away Post a note 1 day ago
X: let me kiss you Post a note 2 days ago
X: If you show no sign of leaving your past, i won't wait cos im moving on to the future. Post a note
X: I'm boyfriend no. 2 Post a note 20 June
X: How can she love him if she's still clinging on to her past memories Post a note 18 June
Love.Sara says (12:26 AM): ok,.. thats my question
X This Is Me says (12:28 AM): ?
Love.Sara says (12:29 AM): ur pm..
X This Is Me says (12:29 AM): well i askd one of my gf..
Love.Sara says (12:30 AM): asked abt what?
X This Is Me says (12:30 AM): abt e pic thingy. n she said normally if a girl keeps a pic of her ex, it means she' not over him
X This Is Me says (12:31 AM): so ya..
Love.Sara says (12:31 AM): den..
Love.Sara says (12:33 AM): n ur gf is?
X This Is Me says (12:37 AM): i dont care abt her. she's a thing in e past. thats y i said im moving on to the future
Love.Sara says (12:38 AM): ok.. but u asked her opinion instead
X This Is Me says (12:39 AM): well my fren is a girl
Love.Sara says (12:39 AM): bt her bf didn't pass away. im the one with the pic rite. let me just clear things out a bit, my past is already in the past
X This Is Me says (12:44 AM): whatever the reason is, its just shows that u still keeping ur memories w him. believe it or not, by doing that its makes it harder for u to move on. thats y i burn my ex gf pic. seeing her face makes it painful and harder to forget her
Love.Sara says (12:46 AM): but mine is not, i hv to let him go whether i want or not. n i choose to accept fate (: i'm ok now. its worst before i met u
X This Is Me says (12:49 AM): by telling me that, i noe ur still in love w him. u have the choice to let him go a not.
Love.Sara said (12:58 AM): bt i changed the pic liao.. smile k
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bt i changed the pic liao.. smile k
Love.Sara said (12:58 AM): and thats the reason y u nv reply msgs OFFLINE
mr a, mr a.. mr a! I got pissed when you told me that you asked your gf about her opinion. you should have asked me instead. I'm the one with the pic. Ask me the reason on y i'm still having the pic, not her! Since you like to ask your gf so much. Ask her this.. if a girl still keeps her ex pic as a screen saver, but cries for other guys when she misses him. who does the girl love?
let me me make the answer pretty obvious, it's you stupid.
I'm tired of how things are already. Seriously, I am. I got my gfs who wish to slap your face when they see you next time round. Even late bf's family is giving me their support to move on. But everytime I tried to talk things out, you clearly don't want to talk about it. For the second time i'm saying this, you're not a negotiator. The truth is, I got over late bf eversince the day I knew you. But you refuse to believe, you refuse to listen. If you are going to choose to believe what your gf said, fine go ahead. Nobody's stopping you.
let me just tell you this, if one day i choose to give up on you, i'll not come back. So i'm telling you now, don't give up on me. Cos if you do.. I'll be dissapointed in you. There'll be no turning back.
And lastly, you want to know what mr a . I do ask my bf as well. I asked them on what if a guy wouldn't date a girl just because he thinks that the girl is not over her ex . And you know what my bf say, only an immature guy would not date the girl. Because mature guys would understand. You're immature mr a. You are so immature. Screw you!
I'd make a vow to myself. To not msg you unless you msg me. To not contact you unless you contact me. My msgs gone wasted for the 3rd time. You pissed me of by asking your gf, and you're so blind that you can't see i'm in love with you. You're a dissapointment. Again you left me with a broken heartache.Labels: words that you said
♥ One Whole Day. ♥
Wednesday, July 1, 2009 ( 11:09:00 PM )
I went out with him today. Wore the clothes that I just bought yesterday. Haha. And guess what he wore - t-shirt, pants and slippers!
That's not even dressing up at all. I know both of us are running out of time to catch the movie because he choose to watch at the 4.15pm movie. By 3pm we still haven get ready when I'm suppose to meet him ard 4pm at bugis. When I asked what time he's leaving his house, he predicts that we're going to watch the 5pm movie cos he knows I'm going to be late.
So, I want to prove him wrong that I could reach the place on time. I took the cab, *playcheat. I'm early and he took the bus.. he's late. by 5 mins. He didn't dress up at all. Prolly, you're not interested to meet me after all?Ahhh. I don't know. Day by day I'm thinking y do i still like you. I'm being very patient. Really, I am mr a. Just look at what we're gonna go through now.
After the movie, we ate at Tong Seng. He's gonna work tmr, so after we had our dinner. Went home, Goodbye. But i didn't went home straight. Haha. Went to raffles city to look for chocs and walking around window shopping alone, with the j.co donuts & coffee ice lemon tea i fulfilled my cravings. I love their ice lemon tea (: Nah. Mr a doesn't know i went to raffles city alone.
Just when I got home, washed up. And then msn. He's there, online. Labels: a smile on my face
