♥ Random Blogger, Random Post. ♥
Sunday, January 31, 2010 ( 1:59:00 AM )
Just as I thought my life has reached the maximum point of shittiness.. Other people has their own shits too you know. And when you faced the biggest shit problems like you never face it before.. you will break down like you've never ever broken down before. Since my lappy is back.. and I'm damn free at home, I went blog hopping. And I suddenly thought about LIFE. Yes,.. i'm talking about life. Whats your definition of life out there? Well for me.. Life is all about.. breathing. And why did I say that?
Now, let me share with you this post that I randomly read from a blogger.. that I duno who. Cos I was bloghopping.. and I find the post is super sad. It could be beyond ur imagination.. it could be more than one could ever imagine. Ouch! It's really a good post.. which tell us a sad story.
" Promises. Promise is such a big and strong word. It is a word that is commonly used in songs and everyday life. Promise is a word that can make or break up one's heart. Sometimes that will be the only word that can make you regret for the rest of your life after which you would not wish to use that word again. I had been through that pain situation once and I hope that the same situation will not happen twice in my life. I reminised all those times I had with my beloved father. He had been there for me when i need him to pull through the bad times. From young, I did not get to feel a mother's love as my mom ran away when i was a toddler. The only thing I heard last of her was that she remarried and settled down. My dad would work extremely hard just to make ends meet. As the sole bread winner of the family, he burned the midnight oil thinking of ways to pay off heavy debts.
As i have a younger brother, M* , who was also schooling at that time, could only sit and watch our dad suffer just for us to get the basic education for us. When my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer, I could not believe his luck. Now not only he had to pay off heavy debts, he had to also fund for his own medicines. As i was in polytechnic back then, i worked part-time to ease off my dad's burden. Every evening M* would accompany my dad to the hospital for regular treatment. M* was dissapointed with me as an older brother as I was not showing any seriousness as I came home in the wee hours of the morning. Every night after work, my girlfriend, A*, will party the night at disco clubs.
A night before my dad passed away, I promised M* and my dad that i will accompany them to the hospital for an urgent operation. On that night, A* asked me to accompany her through the night by going to the disco club. At first i was reluctant but desire and temptations got the better of me and i accepted her request. I slept over at her house after the trip to the club and I was awoken by the sound of my handphone. "He...hello?" I answer the phone with a tired and lazy tone. "Brother! Dad passed away!" shouted M*. At that moment of time, I was too devastated and was shell-shocked to cry.
I got dressed and went home as quickly as I could just to see my dad in the coffin. I weeped like a little child, knowing i let him go without an ease of mind. M* kicked me out of the house as i was heartless and an irresponsible brother and son. I blamed A* for everything that happened the night before. The next day i visited his grave to seek forgiveness and blessings. I apologised to M* and things did not went on well from that day on.
With that incident that left me 20 years ago, I dare not use the word promise, even if I ever mean it again." The end.
Thats all folks about the story I wanna share. Just in case if you're interested, A* soon became the bloggers wife. Awwww, at least he still got someone to love, and be loved. And when I think about this story.. thats what I said.. my definition of life.. is about breathing. Cos when you stop breathing, your life stops. Oookay. I know I don't need to make it sound freaky. Oohs, if you happen to be the blogger who blog-hops and read my post.. I just want you to know that I find your post interesting. And it's a lesson that we all can learn from. Wow. I still can't believe what I read actually.. cos sumtimes when shitty things happen, you just wished that you woke up thinking that its only a bad dream. But in reality, its not. Wake up, Sara. WAKE UP for the reality!
And with just one word - promise, it tells a story with a definition of what it truly means.Labels: Thoughts and wonders
♥ Dinner & Dance. ♥
Friday, January 22, 2010 ( 11:51:00 PM )
Vital Org has this d&d today. and I cant believe we had to pay $20 for this function which is all the way at Expo! Now, how do we get go there by buses or trains when we're looking like bunch of superstars? Haha. How I wish at times like this.. there's car! Luckily, my colleague (Glory) who stays at Hougang is willing to drive there. All the more I can tumpang lah! Hehe.
Werk finishes at 3pm. And I had to rush all the way to Bishan's Swensen to order cake for Aunty Zee this sun. It's too late to pre-order by now, as they need 3-working days notice... So we just select one of their daily cakes from the display. Cookies & Cream it is.. Yay!
Nadiah was late okay when I meet her at Bishan.. grrrr! And the main purpose of getting the swensen's cake is that my aunt says there'll be 30% off especially payment by posb go!card.. which then in turn to be a dissapointment.Haiyo.. No discount at all!!! Alahai, kesiannyer.
For the d&d at expo the only food that is nice - the Shark's fin! It has the shark's fin lor. Really, the real shark's fin lor. Because if you were to eat the shark's fin frm sakura or pasar malam... it's not really the shark's fin that you're tasting. Because the ingredients that they've added more in the soup are such egg.. You cant really taste the shark's fin, but only the soup and the egg! Cheat my money rite? Furtehrmore, they charge at Sakura for $15 for one small bowl. omg! Ookay, enuff bout food.
After d&d, my colleagues and I feel like lepak. So we went to Changi Airport. Cant really camwhore with my colleagues (Glory & Melvin).. we were so hungry lah can? Even though we had our dinner.. which we didnt eat much. I ate popeye.. and end up cant finish the whole meal. Only ate the coleslow and calamari. The rest, I pass it to Glory's bf to finish. Haha!Me and mr a suppose to meet tmr by right. But looking at the situation now, he didn't contact me to confirm bout our breakfast tmr. I msg him.. he didt reply.. So I called him.
Him: Hello
Her: You dapat my msg?
Him: DapatHer: Abeh you tak reply?
Him: My batt nk flat bie.
Her: Okay... Bye
He's still outside lah at this timing ard 12 plus plus. Ape je die buat.. I went to bed without him contacting me. Vice versa. There he goes doing it again. Silence is his middle name.Labels: i'm on the job
♥ The Day We Went Vivo. ♥
Thursday, January 21, 2010 ( 11:00:00 PM )
Last week we didnt meet.. And its so nice to see him after such a long time! Haha. When we were having dinner, its obvious that we seat so close and we tell each other how much we're being missed. However, mr a likes to disturb me today. Disturb me about anything Non-Stop! And he ends up saying WORLD PEACE! What else, I also disturb him ok! Haha. He started it, lols.Me an him are hyper and we just dunno y. Whatever it is, I'm just glad to see him again. We went to vivo city and eat the banquet there. He confident only can reach vivo at 6.15pm.. from orchard. At last, I have to wait few minutes for him. He's late.. Tadaaa! Mr a is late. Haha. Anyway, we ate Yong Tau Foo.. Hmmmm. I have yet to taste a really really nice Yong Tau Foo. Haha.. you know I'm particular about food. The crab meat is not fresh! Thankfully, I didnt get any diarrhea or sumthing. Touchwood! ((:After eating, lepak at Vivo around there, facing the Sea. Till den, wen its about time to go home.. we discussed about this Sat. Supposedly he'll accompany me to go Johore with my colleagues. But den, my collague's (Melvin) gf leg's hurt badly till she cant walk much.
Therefore, we didnt go Johore... but we plan to eat breakfast instead. Prata anyone?Labels: a smile on my face
♥ When Mr a And I Don't Meet. ♥
Monday, January 18, 2010 ( 11:11:00 PM )
15th Jan
Her ~ 23:30 tmr werking and sun nt werking?
No Reply by mr.a
16th Jan
Her ~ 00:12 bie, i jumpe u late after werk nk?
No Reply by mr.a
Her ~ 11:57 morning! i msg u smlm u dpt tk?
Him ~ 12:04 Baby! Aftnoon syg. I thot u bz weekend so i mk apptmnt w my fren alrd
Her ~ 12:06 my aunt suddenly hv to werk.nvm den..hv fun.
Him ~ 12:15 oooh.. nxt wk then i mt u. imy dear. :(
No Reply by sara
17th Jan
Him ~ 16:46 B smlm tk rply till today seh. Hope u njoy ur sun.Tc
Her ~ 16:59 hello baby!looking for me eh.. i miss you dear.mwaah!wats ur plan today? i didnt go sentosa.haha
Him ~ 16:53 Eee geram je. Im lazin on my bed tats my plan today. :)
Her ~ 17:19 wooo.okay,lazy lazy bump bump bump.haha.bie!u tk gi gym?nanti perut u buncit bilang i k.i nk gigit bleh?o-oh
No Reply by mr. a
Her ~ 19:45 aik.. ingatkan i je yg senyap.u pn senyap je sey.lepas dah baca msg i,u tk reply?hmmmmm. ngah tido ke u..dah mlm nie.time to have dinner!haha.rise and shine. lols
No Reply by mr. a
Eventually, I saw him online. But I didn't say hi. I just don't bother. And I wondered why didnt he reply my sms.. I've been waiting for him to msg frm 5 pm just now OK. All the while today I thought he didn't reply my msgs coz he was sleeping. But seeing him online tells me otherwise. My heart just got crushed.. Haiyo. Forget about arguing with him that he has to reply my msgs after reading 'em.
At most what he will tell you is that, "You did message me.. When?? I didn't get your msgs". *pffft.
18th Jan
Her ~ 09:19 good morning baby!hw r u?dun forget to hv lunch k. mwaah! imy
Him ~ 09:21 hi baby.. gd morn.. im ok. u leh? im hungry. anw u gt antg to tell me?
Her ~ 09:26 im hungry too.. my stomach making noises alrdy. ): y suddenly ask if i gt sumthing to tell u? u gt sumthing to tell me?
Him ~ 09:59 - no im just asking..
Her ~ 10:06 den wat's abt my mistakes were made for u?lots of things happen last wk. bt its nuthing in particular abt us
Him ~ 10:08 what thing happen?
Her ~ 10:10 mostly frens and family. den ur mistakes were made for who? (Trying to avoid THE question)
Him ~ 10:15 its a song. anw wats least priority n im no one special
Her ~ 10:20 erm, wat u think its abt?
Him ~ 10:21 I duno tats y i ask
Her ~ 10:41 tats just hw i feel.. tat im not special n im the least priority abt wat happened last wk. told u alrd tat lots of things happen. if u dun like the pm i change k.
Him ~ 10:44 oh ur parents mk u feel least priority?
Her ~ 10:50 yeah.. im angry with dad again.urgh!since im in the least priority, im not sumone in the family.bt in general, i cn also be least priority n nt sumbody to u.im just a fren
Okay, this part.. i twist n turn the story. because.. i am actually angry at him. I dun want to make things obvious such that I try to lie. And after which, I cant cover up that I lied cos I cant lie when I'm mad at him!! The truth is, I feel that I am in the least priority and not that sumone special when I'm with him. Looking at how things are now, tell me a million reasons y i should not feel that way. Well, even though at the end of the day, i am partly angry with dad also. He cant wait to get money from me cos he needs the money for my laptop service. And now almost one week.. my laptop is still not at sight. It's making me like a fool to go home evryday wishing that my laptop is has already been fixed and collected. He can just keep quiet and like dunno how to update me lah.. I need a life okay. I need a laptop!! And I miss my laptop! Arrrggghh
Him ~ 10:53 asal ni emo2? u nvr tok to me anw
Her ~ 10:57 its hard to contact u aniway.mon.wed,fri-courses.tues-driving.thurs-concert.sat-out w frens.sun-chill at hm.i msg u yesterday twice bt u nv replied.c u at msn..bt u bz.hw to talk?
Him ~ 10:59 Sat I text u, u nvr reply. Ystrdy i find u agn aru u rply. Hais ok la b, my fault. Sori
Her ~ 11:07 Sat u said imy, in the end u had plans w frens.den sun u knw i didnt go sentosa,bt u choose to stay at hm.yes u did looked for me yesterday..bt wen i msg to look for you again in the evening..u kip quiet till today.. dis u nv consider?u like to kip quiet after reading my msgs n leave it unreplied rite..
Him ~ 11:17 Sat u say u gt plans w fam then suddenly cancel wen i alrd mk arrangemt w my fren? Sun u say go sentosa n cancel. Nw puttg e blame on me? Im not 2nd option ok.
Her ~ 11:19 Okay..tat makes sense.i clearly understand where i stand nw.its a very good explanation. marvellous!
Him ~ 11:31 U r nt serious. Nvm
Her ~ 11:53 im serious bie.. i only dun wan to argue further.nvm? dun say nvm k.if i reali nv mk u my 2nd option, n if my schedule is tight..we might mt like once/twice a mth.n ur glad that to happen?i rather u be my 2nd option den we dun mt at all.dah bagos sey we mt.i cn also say u made me ur 2nd option wen it comes to smses
Him ~ 12:41 Ok i also cn say 2nd option is better than nvr sms at all! Hmmm..
Her ~ 12:46 i knew u gonna say tat! copycat lah bie..haha.tsk3.u buat i geram ok.eeeeeeeee!geramnyer.
Him ~ 12:54 Geram? Abeh nk buat ape?
Her ~ 12:55 Eh eh.u jgn start eh..main darah je.i dah geram i gigit2 u boleh? geramnyer bie.. haha.
Him ~ 13:03 Okok chill. I need to focus at my work. Nanti my fantasy w u start susah!
That's the thing about us.. one moment we argued. the next moment we still have smiles on our faces. I l0ve arguing with him. Haha!Labels: words that you said
♥ I Hate When I Miss You, Boy. ♥
Thursday, January 14, 2010 ( 10:38:00 PM )
I just hate it badly when im missing you so much, but you're not around
no, i'm not blaming you for not being there for me when i need you most.. i
ts just that i wish i could at least do sumthing to make things turn around.
prolly i could just do.. SOMETHING..!
I hate the feeling too when im just missing you badly..
that i end up caught in the middle of dunno wat to do.
in the end, i'll just be doing nuthing.. and nothing, and nothing at all.
Except for I'll keep telling myself that i am missing you..
and keep letting you know that im missing you.
Ooh, yes yes.. i know that doing nuthing doesnt change anything. silly me.
But wen u come to think of it, at least i manage to let him know that i misses him.
its just the same as how this saying goes..
tell the gerl that you love her before its too late.
And that always happen in those kind of romantic drama series. haha!
Anyway, im just a gerl.. whom you knew 1 yr ago.
And we're just simply frens.. so really, who am i to you?
Im your normal fren.. just the girl who misses you badly.
Thats all.
Labels: mr.a
♥ My Week Is Full Of Him. ♥
Saturday, January 2, 2010 ( 12:46:00 PM )
This week is so full of mr a!! Yahhoooo. ((:
29Dec - And as promised.. I meet mr a on this very date. Haha. Yesterday (28 Dec) meet him. Today meet him again. Prolly we didnt really spend time when we went for the caroussel dinner.. thats y we meet again today. Awwwww. Haha! Any way, he suggested to meet today.. so what else is there for me to give a second thought about it rite? I just meet lah. We did nuthing much.. Just eat.. then lepak.. And then seat by the Singapore River. Yeah.. thats wat we're good at - sit around and do nuthing. Haha.
But then again, I kept on thinking y he didnt want to carry my bday cake? Just to help to carry rhe cake and let me blow the candles.. Doing a simple like that, and he's nt up for it? I know I am no other gerl than just your fren. And I am not your gerlfren. But as a token of frenship or so, at least pick up the cake and let me blow! At least help fafa with the birthday surprise or sumthing. Isyh..
So, without letting these thoughts fill my head much longer.. I asked him this - Nape you tknk tolong angkat cake bile my bday smlm. And then, he said sumthing stupid like.. "you tk pernah buat for my bday" *Pfffft! Wat the hell.. It's no use argueing with this guy lah.. Seriously. End up I merajuk.. and he has to pujuk. He apologized.. "Sorry for not carrying the cake. Sorry for not helping you to blow your birhday candles.. That's just how.. I am." Even though he did apologized, I'm still angry with him. But since he's apologized.. den I'm a bit okay with it. Cos I'll try to understand..
1 Jan - New yr is here! And I went to visit late bf's grandpa. He's having a slight stroke and udergoing therapy at the Bukit Batok St Luke. And at the same time, I went to collect my birthday pretzies frm late bf's family. Thanks for the pretzies!!! And since im at ard Bukit Batok area.. me and mr a went to meet up. I wanted to play pool badly. But he and I cant find a place to play pool. So in the end, we go Jurong Point. Grabbed prima deli n sweetalk. And sit by the park. And we kissed.
Haha. There's a lot of bangla by the park. Everytime they walk pass us, confirm look at us. But sorry lah k, no free show for you guys to see. The main topic that we spoke about is mr a n his ex. His ex still talks to him in msn.. and say things like if he ever got a gerlfren, she ask him to let her know as she wish to know who the gerl is. And mr a ex now is together with his sec sch fren, sumone who has always admire his ex gf. Haiyo.. his story bout his ex and him sounds a bit complicated. But watever lah k. If he ever brags about his ex gf. Then let me brag about my late bf.
I still miss late bf so much. I miss y0u..Labels: words that you said
♥ Welcome 2010. Happy New Year. ♥
Friday, January 1, 2010 ( 9:49:00 PM )
HAPPY NEW YEAR.
2010
It's here now... At last I've finally enrolled for driving car license! Haha. People 18 yrs old take driving already. But sara wait till 21 yrs old. Hurhur. Must wait till I'm mentally prepared to drive I guess. And also now I've the confidence to support myself for driving. Independent, no need depend on mummy.
New year is here, whats my resolution? Go for holiday, buy the things I want and the things that I've been craving for.. Like watch, camera, beq quilts, havaianas. Hehe! And most imporatntly, I want to be fitter. And since I'm on an office job now.. I need to maintain my weight.
Lead a balance diet.. Manage a healthy lifestyle. Cheydebah.. Bebual world. Haha.
Anyways.. saket hati lah ajak si mr a klua. You know me lah kan.. anytime kalau I ade feeling2 nak klua.. I will just randomly ajak sape2 jek yang free. Since I'm already close with mr a I thought I can just randomly ajak die klua lah sey.. Tapi, the more I try to ajak die klua.. the more I find that he'll give excuses. Like when I know he's at home. He knows I'm free.. and I know he has no plans. So wajar kan kalau I ajak die klua. Cos I'll be bored at home. Tapi nie anak lebih rela kat rumah.. tido satu hari. I ade je mcm feeling2 nk nguk wayang lah sey.. but he said - If we go out confirm everywhere pack with people. Tsk3. Kalau u tknk klua ngan I tkpelah. Ckp je terus terang, nie bukan kali pertama u dah buat mcm gini. Sooner or later, I'LL GET IMMUNE TO IT.Labels: blogging this blogspot
