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Today we are proud to pronounce that its a muffin day! Well.. this time round there's lots of roses, multi coloured flowers and heart shapes. But the muffin is a bit too hard. haiyo... i think it must have been the egg. i haven bake one muffin solely myself yet. Today's one.. we follow fafa's recipe. next time probably.. i'll bake and follow my mum's recipe.

I brought these home.. Thinking that I should give some to mr a. But somehow... I dropped the idea. I am all over excited one moment over him.. but at the next very moment. I somehow.. have those feeling that he'll not be excited as me. Haish..

For Dinner, we wen to compass point. And the yong tau fu there is damn nice. Eversince my sec school years.. the taste of the yong tau fu there.. is just as happenning as ever! And so today, I manage to convince fafa to try and eat the Kellog's special K. Heheh. Go Fafa Go!

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"This boy here, has sabotage-d the disposable".. "Eh, proposal.." *Sabotage-d the proposal. ~ Adnan Sempit.


I feel so young. And I feel that he’s old. I’m just 21.. and he is already 23 yrs old. Actually, i missed out the fact to you guys that I’m 22 years old this yr. Haha. Today, the planning of his birthday is like… urgh! Really2 test my patience. Lucky its his birthday today. If I know that this cock up planning happens during other normal days, I would have already.. eeeeee! Screw up everything - EVERY SINGLE THING.

Today suppose to be like the judgement day for mr a to treat me better.

If he continues to be silent as he is, I’m gonna keep quiet like how he is keeping quiet. If he dun look for me, I dun look for him. If he dun sms, I will not sms. If he didn’t ask me out, I will not ask him out as well. All in all, if what he didn’t do for me.. I will not do for him. Tha's what you called fair and square.. rite?

Initially, I was hoping that I could plan a lovely surprise for mr a. Bring him to eat pizza hut, swensen.. or maybe haagen dazs for some ice cream treats. But then again, the thought of him falling sick few days ago just ruins everything. Ooh! And I could yet imagine this, while dining.. I thought I could ask those crew to suprise him with his famous amos cake and sing a happy birthday to him at least...Well, that's just my imagination. Because it didn't happen.

Since it's his birthday, I thought I could make a special day for him. Birthday's are once a yr.. and it ought to be celebrated with some things that you haven’t go or done before. However, when he said he’s meeting his family for dinner in the evning, I could do nothing much. I spent 30 mins today thinking on a second back up plan. What to do? And I waited 2 hrs for his msg (He took 1 hr each to reply my crucial msgs).  When I asked him on what we could do today..**Seriously I know that it’s not the right for a birthday boy to plan on his birth-day.. but if I already had something planned and the birthday boy refuse to go.. so it becomes my problem now? Haish.. *** I wasted another 30 mins thinking and researching on where is the best place to be with him to celebrate. In the end, after so much thoughts.. I gave up.

Seriously. I ended up thinking “Let’s go lot 1 and lepak (chill)”.

Before I met him, I need to go to Compass Point. Collected his famous amos cake and the cab down to Chua Chu Kang. It’s very inconvenient to take train from Seng Kang to Chua Chu Kang you know. Haish.. and its expensive too. Then as I reached, he told me he’ll be 10 mins late. -.- Ok fine. I waited. And when I saw him already.. then, we ordered the frappe from Mac Donald’s and I made him carry his own cake. All we did when we met is.. we sat and chat at the top floor of the Lot 1 playground while wait for his mum to call him for his family dinner.

I felt so clueless on where to go after I met him. Lucky,I met farhanah at causeway point tonight also.

Actually, mr a would still bother to ask me if I would want to follow him for a dinner with his family or,.. we could still meet up for a movie after he had dinner with his family. That was somehow thoughtful.. but i think movie sounds great!

I ate at Swensen's with farhanah.. while waiting for Mr a to reach Causeway for our movie. Thanks to iPhone I booked tickets online for me and mr a to watch the movie. And its a couple seat! At 10.10, it's time for a goodbye to farhanah and Hello again to mr. a. We watched the book of Eli, a movie starring Danzel Washington. By the time the movie finishes, its 12.20. Eventhough there’s still train left for me to go home.. we do still have a choice whether we want to spend the nite together or make our way home. I asked him where to go.. He asked me back where to go. In the end, I’ve decided.. let’s go home.

**Now, I really do hope you changed for the better mr a. If not, I'm sorry. Lights off.

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Its his bday tmr. and i feel like a total loser. he cancelled our meet up yesterday. and i felt so bored to stay home especially.. on tgif day. I asked nad out. We went vivo and watched Remember Me. arggggh. Robert pattison really makes me melt ya knw. Haha.

The story is kindda sad. and i almost cried. Almost. Y must the hero died in the sept 11 attack? Of all the days that he could die.. sept 11 attack?



Sypnosis
In the romantic drama Remember Me, Robert Pattinson plays Tyler, a rebellious young man in New York City who has a strained relationship with his father (Pierce Brosnan) ever since tragedy separated their family. His brother hanged himself.. and his mom and dad live separatedly. Tyler didn't think anyone could possibly understand what he was going through until the day he met Ally (Emilie de Ravin). Intentionally, he wish to get to know her so as to take revenge of her father who had locked him in jail - for a stupid reason that he i sonly trying to stop a fight. However, he then begins to fall for her. Through their love, he begins to find happiness and meaning in his life. Soon, hidden secrets are revealed, tragedy fills the air when Tyler was there.. standing at the World Trade Center when the terrorist attack happened.Sob sob.

Eventhough, I try to go out with Nad to hv a piece of mind, so as not to think about mr a.. I did actually think of him. Why is he silent the whole day? You know.. it’s like last time when he’s using a N86 hp, he keeps on blaming his phone that he cant reply sms and answer calls. But end up till now, even with an iphone.. he still did nt msg me. So does the problem lies with his phone.. or him?

Being myself,.. I still msg mr a. Saying that he’s quiet and hw is he feeling. That guy still can say he’s left with cough and the panadol is causing him drowsy. So I wished him get well soon.. But then I found out, he’s outside with frens nearby his house drinking tea. Ooooh, now I get it. You cancel your plan on me.. but not your frens? What difference does it make..

You were sick yesterday. And you are still sick today.. BUT. You can meet ur frens and not me. I think I know where I stand now. I told him I have a problem with him.. but he replied me “what problem?”. Then I said I dun want to nag bout the problem I had with him. And he ignored me. Haish. . I msged fafa to pour my feelings, and I think she did quite help out in confiding me. Thanks fafa! (:

However, I cried myself to sleep thinking about mr a this night.

Labels: movie you should catch

He got and iphone already but didnt tell me! Hmph. And guess what. I'm suppose to meet him today. But he cancel it on me. He's not feeling well and still stuck in a meeting when I 've finished work. Omg.

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Osiris Eluffel
hmm i've got something to tell u..but it's aok..nt d time yet..hahahaha

Siti Sara
wat do u wanna say?

Osiris Eluffel
hmm erm...i knw dis sound funny...but wen i was in primary 5 i kinda wana say it out to ya dat i like u..hahaha i knw it sound funny..

Osiris is online March 22 at 9:09pm

Siti Sara
as u were saying?
wat u wan say?

Osiris Eluffel
read at d msg i reply bck..

Siti Sara
huh
u like me in pri schh? lols
really?
ook.. that one i nv knew
but till nw?no rite?

OsirisEluffel
haha i knw..well hmm i dunnoe..wen we all graduate,we all started to loose cntct wif each othr n i tot i've to spit out a new life cuz c'mon it was primary skool days..n nw i got to cntct bck wif each 1 of u guys i kinda flashbck all dos sily memories haha


Siti Sara
hahaha.. ok
but still its kidda shocking hehehe.
i mean i nv thot i would hv admirers
i was so slenge in pri sch la. hahaha

Osiris Eluffel
haha..but nt slenge as mi...i was total dumb2..
wif my geek spect..fat tummy..n owaez been distrb by othrs..well it was all in d past..haha

Siti Sara
haha
eh eh.. bt i knw we nv talked rite?

Osiris Eluffel
yep2..cuz i rarely tok to girls..cuz i'm shy to tok to dem..

Labels: i'll live for a better tommorow

I went for the Sephora sale. drag my colleague along - Glory. Haha. The last time i went there, i went crazy for the soap and the mascaras. Till now, i'm loving it. 3 for $20.. where got not worth it? You tell me.


Also, 2 pairs of shoes for $16. 6 pcs toblerone (35mg) chocs for $4. So tell me again, issit worth it?


You, tell me. ((:

Labels: cheapskating my way through

Since I'm on a half day today.. I thought it will be convenient enuff for me to meet mr a. I mean there's no point for us to keep on saying we miss each other but end up not meeting rite?? And since I'll be in orchard anyway, why not lah sey. Let's meet up mr.a. I do wan to meet u. And i was hoping that u would want to meet me too.

Yesterday.. 17-Mar '10
8.10AM
Sara: Morning..is everything ok? or is there sumthing u would like to say?
Mr.a: I miss you.. :(
Sara: miss you too dear..mwaaah!

SILENCE - mr.a left my msgs unreplied.


4.49PM
Sara: halo..u ngah uat ape?busy2?
Mr.a: Headache. So many problem. :)

10.53PM
Sara: baby!still having headache?gt eat panadol?

SILENCE - mr.a left my msgs unreplied.

Today.. 18-Mar '10
8.28AM
Sara: Honestly..i'm running out of ideas on hw do i talk to you. I tried smsing..but after i dah sms,u dah senyap. Tried talking to you at msn but u were watching movie the other time. Den smlm I msg tapi .. I duno if u purposely nv reply or forgot to reply..is evrything between us really ok?
Mr.a: Next time dun tok to me like that ok. I miss u
sara: talk to u like hw.. in wat way i make u angry?

1.10PM
Mr.a: Yelah.. I say I wan slp, then u like "go sleep la.." Pffft
sara: imy ):
Mr.a: IHais, imy too
sara: y hais?shud we meet?
Mr.a: do you want to mt?
sara: Do u wish to mt me?
Mr.a: Up to u..
sara: I am serious..shud we meet?
Mr.a: Im serious..if u want oso can
sara: okays.at least that sound much better. (: wen u free?
Mr.a: Anytime i free.. :)
sara: today or tmr?or sat or sun?I'm free today..hurhur
Mr.a: Oh today i duty till 8pm. Haha
sara: i took half day. at botanic gardens..I c u for dinner?I mt u at orchard want?since i'm already nearby here.
Mr.a: Ok. Wat u doin botanic?
sara: playing uno games?haha.me n my poly frens mt up today. So we gerls pinic here. bt its raining. tsk3. I see you at 6pm or 8pm?
Mr.a: up to u. 6 oso can

We then meet up at 630pm. Had dinner at the Rose Garden. Ate Yu Tiao.. I had hor fun while he had curry chicken rice. I cant finish my meal today.. Sumhow, my stomach is growing smaller. Hehe. Mr.a seems damn stressful. After 1 yr of dating, he rarely smoke when we're out. But now, he does.

Due to stress, he talks abt his boss asking him to do minutes of meetings. Which he thinks his boss should do it. On and on he goes about his work. Until.. he told me about his fren. He went out with his fren yesterday to eat Sakura. And his fren ask for his help to get to know this girl. So mr a help to give his fren's number to the sakura girl. But end up, the girl was hoping that mr.a is the one giving his own number instead of his fren.

Oohh. Wat can I say?

And just so happen that mr.a told me this story. I realized I that I had a dream about mr a and a girl. He was telling me that the girl that I saw in my dreams, is his love. And today.. wat happened? I heard about mr a talking to me bout a girl. Which he didn't wish to get to know. Hmm. Maybe my dreams to predict what will happen? Or it predicted on what's gonna happen otherwise? Maybe.. Perhaps.. Just, maybe.

Then we move on the Marina Square. Had some fresh air.. seated alonf the river at Singapore flyer. Haha. But end up, both me and him are like belo.. sumthing happened.. that we cn just go clueless on what to do.Funny. But yet, we kissed. something that I feel as if we've never done it for a very long time. Padahal, padahal. Haha

Going home time.. I had to chase after my bus! I don't want to end up waiting very long for another bus. Thanks lah 70M.

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Haha. After such a long time, we are able to get rid of our busy schedules and get in touch with each other. It's been a while.. but too bad, rab is not able to join us. She just had her night shift already. Tsk3. She must have been sleeping at home while we are having our picnic at Botanic Gardens. But then again, today is super rainy. Haiyo..

Labels: all about having fun

I've got no new and nice pictures to put up here.. Only just plain words. But whatever k... I dun think my relationship with mr a is going to work out. I mean.. I dunno. It's like, haish.




That's what he posted at msn. And today.. I tried asking him.. if he got sumthing to ask me. He said.. "I miss you  ): ". After all, I replied him - I miss you too dear.. Then, there's no reply from him. Issit just me  or issit you? It seems like your too busy to even talk to me nowadays.. for even just pathetic 5 mins we don't have the time to spend on each other at all? Puhleez. Whar's happening to us?


After work I went to meet up with fafa. We settled the flea market payment at Tanglin Mall. Dun forget to check out for out stalls on 3rd april ok? ((:


When the stomach starts to make noises already, we bus-ed no. 7 from tanglin to bugis. Ate the fish soup at Tong Seng.. And end up having diearrhea. Right away after eating, I needed the toilet badly. Firstly, the feeling is like as if my tummy is too full and I am badly holding my pee. How difficult is that!? Then, only the feeling of I-need-to-fart comes in.. I was sure its gonna be a diarhhea. 3 times okay I went to the toilet today. It started at werk after all. I ate the mee rebus and I dunno if its the unhygienic way of handling foods make my tummy like this.. or its just my tummy have this problem already. Haish!


Can I stop poo-ing now? I hate diarrheas. Cos I hate the feeling of.. going to toilet is an URGENT matter. It can't be delayed, any longer. Riiite? *Common Sense, hehehs*

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Blogging again. I hope it's constant this time round. Since my lappy seems to be working fine. Let's blog.. Blog about.. ANYTHING.. Anything under the sun.

I'm sitting at my living room. Alone. Thinking of what to do.. Haish.
I wanna clean my room.
But it's so messy with clothes.

Sometimes you know what.. I feel life is unfair.
I have a room.. but its all messed up.
Mum chuck all the folded clothes in my room.
Some how or rather, expecting me to sort those out.
Pfft. There's still my sisters in the house you know.

Next, I used to have a lover.. but he had to go to a better place.
He's resting in peace, Amin.

I've then found someone to love..
But he's not here everytime I needed him..
Everytime when I miss him..
Everytime when I wanted to see him..
Everytime when my phone rings, it's not him.
He's just not there.

It's either I'm bad for love.. Or love's bad for me.
Either way round.

Anyway, Let's cheer up a lil bit alryt.. Work is okay today. Except for that, I'm the gundu girl who takes the wrong bus to werk! Of all days.. today's the day? I was so lost at werk ok. I'm already late. And the big boss is at my desk. How to show my face, without even pretending that I'm late? Ooohs. Screw me. ):

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At last.. we're back on track. That is why.. sumtimes when we fight. I think I have to give in. I know I did created it some how. But usually the case is.. if I'm already cool down.. He will cool down too. Lucky I did msg him today.If I wait till tmr and msg him how? I dunno how things will be then. And today.. it taught me a lesson. So much talking bout mr a.. enuff now. Let's talk about my lunch.


I think its time for me to diet. Start eating cornflakes for lunch. And I think its quite filling. It can last me from lunch time till 6pm. Amazingly, I can no need be hungry for about 5-6hrs.. Wow! Let me recommend some to you yeah? And try it for 2 weeks.. to see if you've lost any weight. I'm up for the challenge! ((:

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Woke up at eleven. Ride the bus to amk mrt.. and saw fafa in the bus! Coincidence. ((: She's making her way to orchard.. Happy Birthday to Fafa's Bf. While I'm making my way to yishun. To meet aunty zee (Mum's elder sister).

At Yishun's OCBC bank. Accompany aunt to close her joint account. Then, follow to aunt's place to take her bank book.. cos she'd forgotten to bring. And then proceed to the bank again. Aunt applied for me the Supplementary Credit Card! Ooooh yeah, I'm big enuff to have a credit card. But I'm not sure if its a wise choice after all. Lunch time, had lunch and Manhattan Fish - Northpoint. It's super duper tasty ok. Yum Yum. Cream of mushroom soup with garlic bread, ceaser salad, manhattan seafood platter.. that consist of prawns, fish, rice, squids, chips. I kept on eating till I cant eat anymore. Very, very filling.

With our tummy full.. we proceed to IT show. We're getting ready to squeeze in the crowds of humans. Haha. Camera, Laptop, Cooling Fan, Mouse, Laptop skin.. Aunt bought all of those. And I got one for myself to.. free. Not all of them free silly. Only the cooling pad is for me FREE. And one for herself too.

For dinner, ate at Mac Donald's my treat. Haha. Had the train journey back to amk and went to NTUC. Bought lots of snacks for werk and then went back home. The thing is whole day,.. I'm not talking to mr a. He sumhow made my blood boil. And I think I had enuff of him. I dunno lah. It's like evrything I do now, doesn't seem quite just rite. I dunno if I'm the one creating problems now again. But I think he's the one creating the problem too. I dun think I understand him. And I dun think he understands me too.

My tears just keep on filling my eyes, falling down my cheeks. Just as when I felt, I'm so angry at him. But I do need him by my side.. the more I will cry. Oh god. Right now, I dun think he's the perfect guy right now. Why do I still wish, he has the same chararacteristics like late bf? Prolly, late bf is the guy of my dreams. Probably. And mr a? He can just keep on making me cry like noody's business. Oooh god. Give me the courage to let me go through all these things please.


11:42:15 PM amri : why arent u talking to me?
11:42:28 PM Love.Sara : cos ur not talking to me
11:42:37 PM Love.Sara : you wont talk to me unless my menses ends rite?
11:43:02 PM Love.Sara : and if thats what you want

11:43:19 PM amri : yeah and if thats what you want
11:43:30 PM Love.Sara : no, thats not wat i want
11:43:39 PM Love.Sara : thats wat u want
11:43:48 PM amri : hmm
11:43:55 PM Love.Sara : ur afraid that i would ngamok again
11:43:57 PM amri : i cant see u got big ego


11:44:05 PM Love.Sara : u cant see?
11:44:07 PM amri : susah
11:44:34 PM Love.Sara : apenyer yang susah
11:44:41 PM amri : nvm
11:44:56 PM Love.Sara : ape nyer yang nvm?
11:46:13 PM Love.Sara : ?
11:46:28 PM Love.Sara : dun end the sentence with nvm pls
11:46:44 PM amri : susah la if ppl got big ego
11:46:53 PM Love.Sara : u also got big ego

**Psttt - Hello! This part.. if I got such a big ego.. why can everyone else put up with my ego and not you? If you really like that somone, you will accept him or her for wat she is. Not complaining all about what big ego she has

11:47:01 PM Love.Sara : haiiiiyoooo
11:47:11 PM Love.Sara : den if susah, how to make it easier?
11:48:58 PM amri : dunno la
11:49:01 PM amri : hais
11:49:08 PM amri : okla i better sleep1st
11:49:17 PM amri : carry on talking to everyine else except me
11:49:18 PM amri : night

11:49:19 PM Love.Sara : nite den
11:49:26 PM Love.Sara : i want to talk to you!
11:49:31 PM Love.Sara : but u want to sleep
11:49:39 PM Love.Sara : see who's not talking to me nw
11:49:53 PM Love.Sara : not even 5 minutes of chatting
11:50:04 PM Love.Sara : not even a single msg of communication
11:50:20 PM Love.Sara : nvm
11:50:21 PM Love.Sara : go to bed
11:50:30 PM Love.Sara : ur sleep is more important rite?
11:51:45 PM amri : ooooooooooh
11:51:48 PM amri: b nye ngomel
11:51:52 PM amri: ya ampun
11:52:27 PM amri : gosh ur mences thingy is geeting into u and now im suffering from it
11:52:32 PM Love.Sara : no
11:52:34 PM amri : oh god help me pls
11:52:40 PM Love.Sara : my menses stop already
11:52:44 PM Love.Sara : nuthing to do with it
11:52:51 PM Love.Sara : i mean.. at least its stopping soon

11:53:07 PM Love.Sara : still a bit of menses left
11:53:22 PM Love.Sara : i dunno lah bie, sumtimes wen i just c that its u n ur ego
11:53:30 PM Love.Sara : bt u say me n my ego plak
11:53:32 PM Love.Sara : i dunno lah
11:53:33 PM Love.Sara : i dunno
11:53:37 PM Love.Sara : i dunnnnoooooo
11:53:57 PM amri : then how
11:54:05 PM amri : ?
11:54:12 PM Love.Sara : like i said.. i dunno
11:54:14 PM Love.Sara : ):
11:54:18 PM amri : hais, i dun wan go bed mad at you..
11:54:29 PM amri : peace?
11:54:31 PM Love.Sara : u mad at me?

11:55:21 PM Love.Sara : n tell me pls, why ur mad?
11:56:06 PM amri : cos of ur ego
11:56:27 PM Love.Sara : i really have a big ego?
11:56:28 PM amri : nvm we peace ok?
11:56:37 PM Love.Sara : if u want sleep, den go sleep lah
11:56:39 PM Love.Sara : good nite
11:56:43 PM amri : wah
11:56:47 PM  amri : ok then
11:56:49 PM Love.Sara : haha
11:56:53 PM Love.Sara : peace baby

If you give up on me now.. you'll probably give up on me in the future. I'm not sure about us now.. I can't feel that you like me. And I can feel that I dun like you. If you really duwan me to have a big ego, change me. Help me not to have a big ego.

But..

I now pronounce.. I hate the guy with the name khairul amri bin salleh. He makes my blood boil. And I duno why. I dun think we are lovers.. We are turning to enemies instead. OMG! Listen  up.. if you ten times cannot be bothered by me.. I also cannot be bothered by you ten times more ok. Just when will you tell me, that you do actually care? It's like you will not save me from drowning. You'll only make me drown to death as much.

Why do i even start to love a guy like you? Why am I falling for you? I need to fall out of love. I need to live without you. It just hurts as much now. It will only hurt much more later. I HATE YOU!

Tell me that you don't love me. Tell me that you hate me too. Tell me that you don't care. Tell me that you wont be there. Say all these things to me. So that I'll tell myself to leave. Don't even bother look for me.. Cos I wont bother to look for you. You've caused me so much tears. You've caused me so much pain. Bring me back to the life, before I even knew you. Oooooh, dear god. Help me please. I don't have the strength and courage. I need your help. Amin.

Labels: words that you said

I don't know if I'm not being myself lately. and I don't know wat's up with me. It's like.. the more I'm talking to you, the more I will find fault with you. I am not the perfect person in this world. And every single thing that I do, I know that I can't please you.. as well as I can't please everybody else. Because, I do make mistakes. But I can learn from it. Right?

What happened today, made me cry like shit. I felt like I'm not that important in your life. And you're just being indecisive. Well, my patience has its limit dude. If I can accept for who you are, then please stop talking about me having a big ego. Please.

I know whatever I type here.. you may not be able to read. But at least, it would help me feel much better. If I can never again pour my feelings to you, I'm doing it here. Blogger's my next best friend.


The main point is.. for everything else, I think I did try to put up with you. But for once.. Cant you just try to put it up with me? What's so hard about this.

3.44pm
Sara: You get ur things ferst?I c u a bit later

5.06pm
Amri: Im on duty till 8

5.35pm
Sara: Wah!!I'm on the way to town.oklah.. so I c u at 8 ehs? we still meeting?
Amri: No im at suntec with asrap alrd.Bt ltr go back punch card
Sara: do i still c u a not?
Amri: Up to you
Sara: No need meet lah. I just go out alone.Have fun
Amri: Ok lor..

5.45pm
Sara: okay?I'm already on my way out to see you.. but I get to know u with asrap.n worst..u hv duty till 8. den I ask if u want to c me..but u say up to me.if u dun want to go out with me today,just say.tk payah lah susah payah mengharapkan utk jumpe u nyari.isyh.
Amri: U yang ckp get my stuff 1st. And asrap want get things oso. I am on duty wat u want me to do? Duno y ur mad at me.
Sara: I dun think u understand..urgh!nvm.enjoy ur weekend
Amri: And I dun think u undastd either.U hv a gd weekend too.
Sara: abeh skrg nie I dah klua I nk jumpe sape?I nk jumpe u kan.. tapi. Dahlah forget it.
Amri: Then u yg ckp skrg tnk jumpe. Not me wat.
Sara: But u still cn say u nk jumpe i wat
Amri: Abeh u tknk i tknk pakse la.

6:01pm
Sara: Abeh u lebih rela I klua sorang lah nie?happy?best?seronok I klua sorang?I tanye u nk jumpe I ke tk..u ckp up to me..u tk ckp u nk i jumpe I. So I tknk jumpe lah.
Amri: U dah lambat,pastu suroh I get my thgs 1st,skrg u nk mengamok?
Sara: okay..my fault lah. happy?I dah lambat..abeh u tknk jumpe i.That's wat happening now rite..u tk tanye wat time I meeting u ke..nape I lambat ke..n nw it's my fault I mengamuk?hv things ur way den.do watever ur happy.oooh,sorry i mengamuk. I didnt mean to
Amri: U yg tknk jumpe. I cume ckp ok. So dun put words to my mouth

6.25pm
Sara: Ok mr ego
Amri: Ok ms ego..

6.52pm
Sara: I'm not ms ego lah. I'm just little miss upset.I dah kt luar sorang2 tk tau mane nk pegi.ingatkn nk jumpe u ..tapi u r fine abt kite tk jumpe..n I'm all out alone.haiz.tkpelah..I can take care of myself nw.happy finding ur speaker
Amri: Ego lagi lah ckp tknk jumpe.Nt my fault mah. Duno y u ngamok at me
Sara: menses kot?haha.I'm having bad day also.stress.that's y prolly I ngamok.sorry lah..ngamok2 pon I nangis sey. Sedih tk dpt jumpe u. u ego lagik la tknk pujuk i. At least u cn still say u want meet me eventhough I dun want meet u.sape lah i nie kan

7:18pm
Amri: Yelah lepas geram kat i pe.Hais.. Sape la i
Sara: ok..salah i.i tau..so we really nt meeting rite
Amri: I say up to u. if u dunwan, i gt nuthing to say

7.30pm
Sara: den if i want, u gt sumthing to say?
Amri: Nope
sara: okay..I'm on my way to town nw and I dunno if I'm meeting u. Allow me to tell u wats my plan for tonite.If I'm meeting u.. I'm gonna say sorry cos I know I dah ngamok. And if I'm not meeting you,den I'm gonna watch alice in wonderland alone.help me decide cn?which one u want?
Amri: Up to u

7.45pm
Sara: tat's nt a question. it's nt an answer either. I want to meet u..cos I miss you sangat2.dah kasi hint pon u tk faham..ya ampun. dahlah save ur bills. this sms is going nowhere.
Amri: I nk confirm you ckp.Ok mt u wer?
Sara: I'll be at orchard

8:13pm
Amri: Jumpe I pat orchard mrt in 15 mins time

8:30pm
Sara: ok reached

10:56pm
Sara: Reached hm? goooood nite sweet dreams.

Msged him but there's no reply. Haiyo. I met him for less than 2 hrs. And when I reached Orchard.. he wants to eat at Yishun. Might as well I meet him at amk rite? And the traing journey sucks. It makes me feel as if we are total strangers. We are standing in the same train, at same cabin, on the same time.. But he choose to listen to his mp3 player. Tknk layan I nampak.. Thanks lynn for picking up my call.

When I met him, I GOT NO MOOD TO EAT. Just have a drink.. And watch him eat the hor fun. He did feed me some,.. eventhough I dunwan it. Ask me buy my own meals.. but I dunwan. Thoughts of him buying a meal for me, runs in my head that time.. It's not that I cant afford a meal myself. It's just that.. it's his thoughts that counts. I do admit, I was really hungry at that time. But with things like this.. I rather starve.

CONCLUSION: Bottom line is, if a guy really loves a woman.. he would not let her go out alone. Because he do care for the gerl. But this guy.. he's letting me going out alone tonight. Which means, he don't care. Must I remind myself that I'm not his gf. And can I stop treating him as if he's mine?! Urgh. It's either I'm frustrated with myself.. with the world.. or with him.

And as you can see, we meet up for less than just 2 hrs.And its not just me who's having a bad day today.. my gfs in facebook facing crisis as me.

Labels: mad about you

For once, after work.. me and mr.a went to yishun for a dinner and watch movie "My Name is Khan".. And he doesn't want to believe me that Shahrukh Khan and Kajol acts in the movie! Until I have proof, I google the movie with my iPhone to see the trailer. Yes, its my newly bought iPhone. Hehehs. He asked me why I didnt tell him that I bought a new phone. Actually, it's not that I want to hide it frm him. I just want to avoid things he'll say like I'm a show off or I'm action when I say I bought new iPhone already. Tsk3.

The best is, to keep a low profile rite? (:


He was sweet today. Asked me to msg him when I reached hm. And because I want to watch the Hindustan show.. we finished watching movie at 11.40pm, according to his clock. Which is like, damn freaking long cn? Nearly 3 hrs.. Didn't really spend time much though. But at least.. for the few hours, I'm sitting beside him holding hands in the cinema. Awwwww. I miss you.

Labels: movie you should catch

What it feels like to be me?

You have no idea what it feels like, to be me.. when every moment I just crave for your presence. When I badly wanted to read ur msgs, hear the sound of your voice or perhaps, it would be like a dream came true if we're meeting again. I'm admitting this boy, I am falling for you. But look at our situation now. Sometimes, you make me wonder and ponder. That there's some things about you I like.. And some things that I dun like.

I like the way.. When I'm with you.
The way that you make me smile.. the way that you could light up my you life.

It seems that you could mean so much more to me already.. more than anything that I could ever imagine. Unfortunately, you have a habit of not replying my msgs.. and I CANT read your mind, and I CANT understand your silence. I've tried being patient for as long as I can.. But the more I patience I get, the more harder my craving is. How could I resist you, when we are so far apart? I need to msg you.. I need you to msg me. However, my msgs continue to remain unreplied, when I tried to sms. Am I the one who's the only one missing you here? Am I the only one who is having a handphone here? What happened to your phone that you can't even reply? And every single time when I asked you why you didnt bother to text me, what did you say? You said you did text me but I didnt reply.

For once, if you told me this.. I would have believed. But if every time, where's the proof?

As I learnt to love, I learnt to hate your ways. And as the more I learnt to hate.. I began to love to hate. All in all, I hate to love you.. and I love to hate you.

Grrrr. I am going nowhere with these hate and love thingy. Haishh. I know, I know. What should I do now? I cant stop thinking of him every single time.. Because, I am just a friend. I am not your perfect match, right?

Labels: mad about you

11:05:54 PM
|a|m|r|i| gosh my ex is bothering me
11:05:56 PM
Love.Sara urgh, msg u bt no reply. wat she wants?
Love.Sara hey.. nice nick though. hahaha so decorative ur name.. dah, jgn kembang
11:06:41 PM
|a|m|r|i| hehehe. thank you.. just got back?
11:07:39 PM
Love.Sara a-huh. 4 hrs of singing.. haiyo! tsk3
Love.Sara u haven say what ur ex want.


11:08:34 PM
|a|m|r|i| ask me hu im dating all
11:08:42 PM
Love.Sara den?
11:08:57 PM
|a|m|r|i| i say got la mind ur own business hahaha
11:09:03 PM
Love.Sara tsk3.. n if want to know who u dating?
11:09:31 PM
|a|m|r|i| ya she wana noe


11:09:49 PM
Love.Sara *n if i want to know who u dating? whats ur answer for me?
11:09:55 PM
|a|m|r|i| hahaha the girl that always mk me smile, that i love spending time w and kissing her non stop
11:10:43 PM
Love.Sara hmm..... sape eh.... LOL
Love.Sara oooh i think i know who
11:11:26 PM
|a|m|r|i| ok who?
11:11:35 PM
Love.Sara adelah the gerl
Love.Sara hello, we are suppose to talk abt ur ex sey... asal nie sidetrack?
Love.Sara hahahahha i know its me dear, wow....
11:12:18 PM
|a|m|r|i| eh eh tak tau malunyee... LOL

11:12:49 PM
Love.Sara i didnt i know i'm the girl who - that always mk you smile, that you love spending time w and kissing her non stop
11:13:08 PM
|a|m|r|i| huh?
11:13:14 PM
Love.Sara lols...
Love.Sara i mean u actually confess lor.. that i always make u smile.. that you love spending time with me.. that you kiss me non stop
Love.Sara need i say more? hahaha
11:14:05 PM
|a|m|r|i| eh eh tak tau malunyee.... did i say it was u? hehe
|a|m|r|i| yelah u lah.

11:15:04 PM
Love.Sara grrrrrr. so wat else ur gf want?
Love.Sara eh, i mean ur ex hahahahhaha sorry bie.. type wrongly
11:16:59 PM
|a|m|r|i| hahah i ask her to buzz off. so thats all
11:17:22 PM
Love.Sara thats all?
11:17:33 PM
|a|m|r|i| yeah
11:18:03 PM
Love.Sara ok (: 
Love.Sara im thinking of all the possibilities on why she's doing tat.. her intention n all
11:18:35 PM
|a|m|r|i| ?
11:18:38 PM
Love.Sara *intentions i mean a gerl dun just go to a guy and ask.. "who are you dating"
Love.Sara it take a lot of guts for them to do so.. there must be a reason behind it

11:19:45 PM
|a|m|r|i| hah i ask her go tok to her ex. ouch dun tok to me
11:19:51 PM
Love.Sara ?
Love.Sara y would u do tat.. can tell nicely, hahhahha omg! OUCCCCCCH
11:20:27 PM
|a|m|r|i| cos she said she bored.. then say y i like that... like malas wan layan her
|a|m|r|i| then i say u go tok to hazwan la...oops
|a|m|r|i| then she ask eh how u noe i was w him
|a|m|r|i| then i said i know EVERYTHING
|a|m|r|i| then she ask so what i know
|a|m|r|i| i keep insisting everything
|a|m|r|i| then she ask say la.. i dun wan|a|m|r|i| then she asked so hu u dating now, i say got la mind ur own business.
|a|m|r|i| then she say whats wrong w u, i say nth wrong u go tok to hazwan la... ooops
|a|m|r|i| LOL then she keep asking till give up

11:23:26 PM
Love.Sara hahhaha u can be very difficult sey
11:23:50 PM
|a|m|r|i| so dun make me :P
11:24:10 PM
Love.Sara u know i cn be difficult too rite? so we're the same k
Love.Sara fair n square
11:24:26 PM
|a|m|ri| hmm tanak kalah
11:24:32 PM
Love.Sara hahahahha okay lah.. i kasi u menang.. menang dapat present ape?
11:25:18 PM
|a|m|r|i| say u can have whatever u like

11:25:30 PM
Love.Sara oooh shit!

Labels: mr.a

We Met.

I had to say.. I think it's one of the best dates ever!

I wore a dress, and he wore smart short-sleeve top with sneakers.
It's one of the best dates EVER!
He's with a new haircut today.. Cute ((:
Ooh, I mentioned it already?

Yeah,.. best dates ever.

Labels: a smile on my face

Yesterday, I went to late bf mum's place.. visit his mum and his grandfather. It kindda saddens me on what I saw. Living on a 1 room rental flat, his grandfather is wheelchair bound. And still, he's suffering from stroke. Half of his body, the right side particularly, cant be moved at all. And the poor old man is all bones. He cant eat proper meals. And survived at most with just a spoonful or two of porridge. Cos if he tries to eat a lot.. he will just keep on coughing. And if he coughs a lot, he has to see the doctor for consultation.

And when I had my meals in front of him.. I can see it in his eyes that he wants to eat whatever I'm eating, badly. Be it or not, if I'm eating mee goreng, mandarin oranges and drinking coke. He wishes he could eat almost anything. But there's nothing we can do for now.. We could only give some encouragment that grandfather needs to get better, in order to eat as per normal.


Sometimes, I wonder. What have we humans done untill we receive a test from god. To see the limit of our patience, there must be a lot that we have to go through. And some say that, we have to been through sadness to gain happiness. But seeing what happened in front of my eyes today just saddens me more, and it could really be heart breaking if I knew every single details of their family life.For you, I will pray.. so that everything will be okay one day. Amin.


After meeting late bf mum, I went to meet mr a. I decided to eat at Al-Ameen. He had his fried kway teow and I had prata pisang with 2 piece chicken with coleslaw. Since mr a really did pass his Traffic Police test, I decided to treat our dinner meal today. Haha. If only he knew that I will be treating him.. he will ask for chilli crab, bla bla bla.. to make sure that we eat till our stomach content. tsk3. After that, he brought me to Bukit Gombak. It's a nice nature reserve! And I've never been there once. It's my first time.. and his. Thanks for bringing me to the wonderful place. Even though, I was frightened a bit. The place is dark.. such that you'll never know if you'll see white dresses floating around! Isyh... I'm till that scared ok. Haha. Shooooo away the evil thoughts! Arrrrgh. ** I'm sorry mr a. I made you wait for 30 wasteful mins.

I began to learn more about mr a's past. He used to be the guy who sells cigarretes/pirated CDs and be part of a gang during his secondary school days. An express student mixing with normal academics and normal technical students. He had became a gangster himself.. and involved in fights. He used the money that he earned, to support his gf. As that time, her family has been declared bankrupt when they're in secondary. At young age, they learnt to support each other? Then when he's in NS, she starts to support him back. He also have lots of admirers, be it in secondary school or till now. And one thing that I asked...


Since there's lots of girls who likes you, and you didnt even bother about them.. Why did you choose to make friends with me and fafa in the first place, when we are strangers at first sight?

This, I'm still waiting for the answer. And I will not give up asking.

Labels: mr.a