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My shift this week starts at 8.30am and ends at 6pm. But too bad, it seems like I just can't wake up. The urge of me continue my beauty sleep is pretty strong. Yesterday, I was suppose to wake up at 6.30am to pray and get ready. I reached work at 11am.

I was almost on the verge of going to the doc, to ask for mc as I'm super duper tired sey. But i hang on and proceed to work instead. That was yesterday.

Then today, I'm suppose to reach work at 8.30am again.. I can't wake up. There's the headache and sore throat. So, ta--daa. All the more reason I have for me to take mc. Haha! The doc grant me a 2 days mc to rest. (: Never the less, my agency being very demanding asked me to submit my timesheet even though I'm on a 2 days mc. Be it I want it or not, I dropped by at the workplace and do as what she says. Lucky, it's just a walking distance from my place.. haha. One bus stop away only.

I went to the polyclinic all alone, waited for 2 hrs to see the doc! Sooo long! After which I went to hougang mall to grab a drink and look around for stuffs. Haha. I got a dress from cotton on. $12.50 only, price is on sale! Woo-hooo. I did more shoppings today. Nadiah accompanied me. To bugis! Yayness.

*Pssst. I went online shopping and grabbed on tights and one floral vest as well. I'm so in love with florals. Haha!

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and today, i wished i sms you. but the more i think i should.. i might as well just terminate my line. refrain myself from contacting you. as usual, you're the silent stranger. i'm tired of trying too hard to actually let you know that i like you. to actually care on the way i feel for you. when i dun reply your msgs, it seems like its a big deal. you'll make a fuss saying that i took one whole day to reply. but when you dun reply my msgs, it seems like its not even a deal at all.

just what am i gonna do with you mr a? i kept on trying and trying.

when you thought that i am clinging on my past, i've tried in so many ways to let you know that its you in my mind all the while. when you said on your msn that you felt as if you're my boyfriend number 2, i tried to msg you to let you know that i do actually care with what you feel and with how things are now. when we dun meet for few weeks, i'm making an attempt to keep my days free for you. But..

when i said i miss you. you dun miss me too. when i blew thoses kisses for you, you're not blowing your kisses for me too.

the man i know before has changed. and till today, no matter how hard i try. i'll still fail.

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On Friday June 19, Shuk asked me out to meet him accompany him get pretzies for his gfs rite.. and I declined.

The reason being is that I'm going to be out with mr. a and i dun want to make it obvious for Shuk to know that. So yeah, I promised Shuk another outing for me and him so that I can accompany him get pretzies for his gf. It's just like another day for me to make up to him to accompany him this time round.

So, today happened to be the day me and my gfs (kama & fafa) to go karaoke together. I have to also return them their belts and slippers which I had brought home from the chalet previously. It didn't occured to me that today also marks the day Shuk really proved to me he cared all this while.



Let me share something..

It was a planned outing with my gfs to go karaoke. But not with shuk. At the last moment when i was getting ready to leave the house, i msged shuk saying i'm meeting my gfs. And since its shuk off day today, shuk was supposed to go out with his police ns frens to watch movies at amk hub. But this shukri was like "I can join you for a while, and then go for the movies with my frens" Ooookay, i met him first at amk mrt before we went to orchard.

Then by the time we met fafa & her bf and kama.. me and shuk joined them. Haha. I wore blue and shuk wore blue. Fafa wore grey, and her bf wore grey. omg, it looks more like a couple outing but coincidentally. okay, den when we got the karaoke room.. it was like 5.15.. and shuk was suppose to leave by 6.15. in the end after 6.30 like that, he told me he's not going to join his frens. i'm like omg. u cancelled your outing with your frens because of this outing with me! It's like he already bought the movie tickets to watch with his frens but he cancelled it due to this outing with me. *touched.

For dinner, we went to kfc. and shuk refused to let me pay for my meals. gentle man eh. We're seated and talk and talk over our dinner. By the time its time to go home, me and my girls go our separate ways. Since i'm already reaching my house safely with a taxi, I asked shukri to continue the taxi ride home so that he could be home safely with a taxi also. All he said was "nevermind" paid for my taxi fare and send me under my block, in front of my lift. And while for him, he walked home or take the bus home. That guy just refuse to listen when I want to pay for my own meals, when i want to pay for my own things.. ooh god.

In the end I asked him to drop me a msg when he's home to let me know he's safe and sound. Of course lah, I had to do so as that guy has already made me return home safely.. and for my part, I just want to make sure he's home safe and sound too.

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X This Is Me says (10:48 PM):
ok.. i can see u got temper too huh.. relax

Love.Sara says (10:49 PM):
evryone has a temper too rite, like someone dun wan accompany me get my slipper when i make things difficult last friday. Haiz

X This Is Me says (10:50 PM):
are you talking about me.. u oso eh, hahah nvm*

Love.Sara says (10:50 PM):
what nvm.. i noticed you dun like to talk about past. i mean in general, correct me if im wrong

X This Is Me says (10:52 PM):
i dont like to hold on to the past. i know u do haha

Love.Sara says (10:52 PM):
hahaha, not exactly . if the past is not settled, den i'll still hOld on

X This Is Me says (10:54 PM):
ah i see

Love.Sara says (10:55 PM):
living on a prayer? does it really means anything

X This Is Me says (10:55 PM):
a song i told you, simply means u live ur life by praying to Him

Love.Sara says (10:56 PM):
you always put songs as pm

X This Is Me says (10:56 PM):
err no difference .. u too

Love.Sara says (10:56 PM):
so, i guess usually the lyrics to the song definitely has its meaning rite

X This Is Me says (10:56 PM):
well wats the difference btween us pm? ans me

Love.Sara says (10:57 PM):
haha, thats just so you. you won't stop asking until you got ur answer

X This Is Me says (10:57 PM):
u can say im a determined man.. so tell me

Love.Sara says (10:58 PM):
if i nv tOld u

X This Is Me says (10:59 PM):
expect the same from me too nxt time?

Love.Sara says (11:01 PM):
chey, smart answer hahaha.. what u think the difference in us all about

X This Is Me says (11:02 PM):
i dunno.. u tell me

Love.Sara says (11:02 PM):
okay, let me start. i found last fri meet up was a little bit different. i dunno, i just felt that way. and things happened pretty stranged i guess

X This Is Me says (11:03 PM):
what do you mean?

Love.Sara says (11:04 PM):
Errrrrm, ok i asked you one thing, last week to you the meet up was pretty normal like any other days? or was it diffrent from any other days

X This Is Me says (11:05 PM):
tell me everything first. den i'll tell you

Love.Sara says (11:05 PM):
u answer me first, den i explain

X This Is Me says (11:06 PM):
no tell me everything den i say. u say whatever u got to say first

Love.Sara says (11:06 PM):
ahah.. okays, i'll continue. i got pretty much confused on that thursday when i tOld you i meet you on fri.. den you said we'll meet some other time cos u had interviews

Love.Sara says (11:09 PM):
in the first place i've already tried my best to put aside certain days to go out with you.. and i did even asked you before if you wanna meet on fri or sun.. den you said to let me know when i've decided

Love.Sara says (11:10 PM):
den when i've decided tat it shall be on fri ou tOld me you had the job interview and its like totaly okay if we meet some other time. i almost given up hope to meet you again

X This Is Me says (11:11 PM):
ok antg else to add

Love.Sara says (11:11 PM):
yes yes. still got things to add.. haha, den dat fri when i woke up frm my Sleep i saw ur msg. i was pretty much okay back when i got ur msg when u said you wanted meet

Love.Sara says (11:13 PM):
but it got worst when you said i always reply you late and im making things difficult
thats when i asked why you're acting so cOld

Love.Sara says (11:14 PM):
cos things seem so different and weird
when you said "if you want, i could meet you at town"
Love.Sara says (11:15 PM):
you said sumthing like that, den im like if you want to meet me den you'll meet me rite
clearly i want to meet you lor cos i already put aside that friday to go out with you

Love.Sara says (11:16 PM):
thats when i asked you if you dun want meet me den dun go to town.. den you like "Happy finding your slipper". i'm like huh? Okays, fullstop

X This Is Me says (11:17 PM):
whats that make it different from the normal meetings then?

Love.Sara says (11:18 PM):
its how we planned it. one moment we're not meeting, one moment we are. then the next moment we're not meeting.. i mean on that friday it clearly reflects it liao. one moment we planned to meet, next moment its cancelled.. but ends up still meeting

X This Is Me says (11:20 PM):
oho ok anythg to add

Love.Sara says (11:21 PM):
i want to listen to the things you said first. thats all for now. i know i talk a lot lah haha

X This Is Me says (11:21 PM):
haha first of all im sorry

Love.Sara says (11:22 PM):
nah, no need apologize second of all....

X This Is Me says (11:22 PM):
somethings just pop up just like intvw. but true u said fri n sun u free. but i dun like to be like a 2nd option kinda thing, cos u told me u wanna go out w lynn on sun so thats y u meeting me on fri

X This Is Me says (11:23 PM):
i just dont like it.. oh well im getting used to it i guess. thats all i have to say

Love.Sara says (11:23 PM):
what u mean like a 2nd option

X This Is Me says (11:24 PM):
cos u told me u wanna go out w lynn on sun so thats y u meeting me on fri. meeting lynn is a first priority

Love.Sara says (11:24 PM):
no, going out with you is the first priority.. on sun i'll still be going out with lynn, den if fri i cannot mt u den i can mt u on sun after i accompany lynn to jemputan. thats not priortizing meh

X This Is Me says (11:26 PM):
thats the thing.. meeting lynn first, nvm

Love.Sara says (11:26 PM):
den i should meet you first? cos we normaly go out at night right

X This Is Me says (11:27 PM):
i dunno how to say this.. but you'll know if i do it to you

Love.Sara says (11:27 PM):
ok, do it to me den i'll know how you feel

X This Is Me says (11:27 PM):
nah u wont like it.. i dont do this that i dont likeppl do to me

Love.Sara says (11:28 PM):
but i want to make it a point that you were nv my 2nd option.. i mean nvm

X This Is Me says (11:29 PM):
ok

Love.Sara says (11:30 PM):
anymore things to add

X This Is Me says (11:30 PM):
nah

Love.Sara says (11:30 PM):
im sorry too if i did sumthing wrong unintentionally

I wore heels today. Haha!At least, it's manageable. The baby in the pic so cute, she'll randomly arrange the seats at the sisha place while singing her own very songs.

When I thought losing late bf was the toughest thing ever, others too experienced the loss of their loved ones. It's sad to hear about losing someone else stories. But then again, all the lovely happenings in the past should just be then left as purely memories. Lynn's cuzzie too experienced losing a bf tragedy. Sometimes I just wished that I could be with someone forever as a happy-ending couple, leading a normal life jus like everybody else. But sometimes, I tell myself that I'm prolly the chosen one to take up the challenges in life.

I wish to focus with my life now. What I am today, is what I am now. & I'm clearly falling for mr a.. even if I say that he's a stranger that I never once knew.

Then again, mr a thought I didn't spend time with him on the wkend all cos of meeting him is the 2nd priority. wth. And he did saw my pic with late bf as my screen saver during our last meet up. From there, he thinks this way - "how can she love him when she's clinging on to her past". That's his msn nick.

i'm a dragon baby, oooh.

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I really want to see you again, I really do. But it's just so heartbreaking when you said, prolly we'll meet some other time. That is just so you. Let me drown in my own pool of tears.

Shuk asked me how's fafa bday celebration was. And his intention msging me is to actually asked me out. He'd like to get some pretzies for his girly frens and thought I could help him out. He asked me along partly coz seems like the things I chose or wear, it will be forever be pretty to him. I don't know lah that guy.

Since I'm darn tired, as soon as I reached home today.. I went to sleep. After a party hangover, i slept at 5am this morning, okay.. practically not true. I didn't manage to sleep. Thinking about mr a. Just because mr a dun want to meet me, I cannot sleep. -.- Oh well, at the later part of the day, me and mr a msged.

mr A: wats ur plan today?
Sara: hello. my plan for today? i plan to go out only. i need get shoes or slippers. my slipper worn off liao.y? sorry late reply.

mr A: thot want mt u. cos my interview at 7 cancel. bt im already otw back. nvm then.
Sara: i just woke up only. hw come interview cancelled? i'm still getting ready to get my things. bt since u otw hm, nvm.

mr A: oh tired huh? u always reply me late. Anw where you getting ur stuff?
Sara: huh.. i always reply u late.. so, for ur nxt msgs i just wait 2 or 3 hours to reply u cn? bt even if i msg u late, i did say sorry. its nt like i msg u late intentionally.. prolly town

mr A: if u want, i cn mt u there
Sara: if u dun want, den i dun meet you there

mr A: oh c'mon.. nvm just continue my bus ride back home.
Sara: i want to meet u, bt if u choose to b otw hm den ok lor.. like you used to say, prolly we mit sum other time rite

mr A: i dun mind dropping down somwhere and head down to town. thats y i asked u, simple yes or no. but u mk it difficult. Hv fun finding ur slipper den.
Sara: y r u being so cold towards me so suddenly?i did tell u i want to mt u.

mr A: im not being cold towars you switheart. Wt time will u reach town?
Sara: yes u are.. ooooh nw den say switheart?

i began to realize, i hate him. but i like him. but i hate him. but i like him. all i felt now is, you did nothing best then to make me cry. you left me in tears and heartbroken. there's something incomplete about us.

Well oh well, after the heartbreaking msgs me and him still meet up. I went to get my slippers from mphosis. and I met him for dinner at Long John Silver. When I was getting my meal, he saw my pic with late bf as a screen saver on my hp. He didn't get to take a good look at it.. and he nv mentioned anything. Only after we met, he msged to ask who's the couple pic on my hp. Thats when I told him when the time comes, I'll delete it.

Since then, it explains why he refuses to msg me or lately. Prolly. oh, i dunoe. Eversince today, his msn nick is - How can she love him if she's still clinging on to her past memories

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Early in the morning I went to get mc. It was a planned day, not to go to work. Fafa's bday celebration is today and I would not want to miss it.

Queued almost an hour and a half for the doc. Pfft, but at last it was worth while. (: I told the doc I had with a diarrhea, and my plan went smoothly. With big bags and so many stuffs, me and my girls went to downtown east costa sands. Got changed, and ta-daa we're prepared for wild wild wet! Yahooo.

I want to play wild wild wet again! or perhaps escape theme park? Haha! Let my childhood life restart please. I'm having too much fun. Today's full of fun and celebration..

The Birthday ..


The couple ..

The girls ..

The celebrations ..

The Games ..

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It's been such a long time eversince i last blogged! omg but no worries.. my blog's not dead yet. hehe. Let's talk about work okay. I found the most sarcastic and funniest joke ever.

A customer calls you, to tell you that she pressed some key on her Nokia handphone. Suddenly when someone calls her, she got a missed call. She explains to you that she has a butterfly logo on the top left corner of her hp. In the end you found out, her phone's on silent mode. All you told the customer is to press the hash key of her hp to deactivate the silent mode.

Hehe. So cute lah..

A customer calls you, asking for your help to configure some bluetooth device to iphone. You advise the customer that iphone does not supports bluetooth. You even checked with your colleague that the iphone only supports apple earpiece bluetooth. The customer insisted that his iphone could support with the motorola bluetooth, and even claimed that 3 of his friends whom are using iphone are able to do so. On your side, you get the facts right that iphone does not support bluetooth. The customer replied "Are you an iphone user?" You replied no, and this is what the customer answers you "You're not an iphone user, thats y u don't know. Nw get the technical department to help me"

And that is one irritating malay guy customer.

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i've been busy. and i haven't see you. but if this carries on, i'll just play by your game. i dreamt of mr a, on how i participated in camping activities and he's the camp leader.. and how i went back schooling and he's my schoolmate. haha! crazy as it sounds. oh well, like what i've said before - you're just the stranger that i've never once knew.

Gonna be two weeks since we last met.. but there's nothing we do about it. I told you i missed you. You told me you missed me too. But then we're not going out, we're not msning, we're not smsing, we're not talking. FINE, let's be this way.

Today's fafa sis wedding, but omg. Having a best fren not to be able to attend your sis wedding with a lame kind of reason? That's just so unacceptable. Come on lah, bottomline you're invited but you're not coming kama. Pffft. I'm having bad days lately, mood swings. And I hate work. It's like as if I'm not the one up for the job.

Aaaaah, fcuk life. I'm sorry, mind my words. But lately I miss him and I hate work, I've been so busy and I could hardly have time to visit late bf, visit late bf family. Just what life is turning to? I don't know. Let me just live for a better tommorow.

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I've not talking much about him anymore. & I'm not seeing him lately. I don't think we're communicating. I don't think we're keeping in touch either. It's just more of a "hi/bye" or "on/off" kindda friendship. It's not going anywhere, and why is it must I feel that everytime he's the one creating the problem. The Problem Between Us.

When you don't msg me, I have a problem with that. When you don't ask me out, I have a problem with that. When you don't wish me "Happy Graduation Day" I have a problem with that. When you don't remember how many days we've lost touch, I have a problem with that.

That's how just it reflects how I mean to you. Isn't it?

And yeah, it's like everything you do.. I have a problem with you.But you, do you even have a problem with me in the first place? I don't think so. You may be imperfect as it sounds, and you may be the creator of the problems that I've found. But somehow bottomline, you're just so fine in your own ways. You make me laugh, you make me smile, you make me just want to strangle you upside down. Hahaha.

Hey.. how long must we remain quiet. How long must this non-communication carries on. I've been going out with my gfs these past three days. And I've been going out with other people but you. Mon was with kindergarten friends, Tues was with pri sch friends, Wed was with poly friends, Thurs was with my bestie friend fafa, a.k.a sec school friend. Now, how many more friends must I find in order to make myself accompany when I'm not with you?

It's not just this time.. but few times I've tried to sms to ask how you're doing.. all you say is "i'm at home, no money to go out" So in this state of mind, what do I do? I thought you said you're home, but looks like you're still going out with friends. Go out to borrow library book lah, go out to roller blade lah. Prolly I'm not the one in your life. Prolly I'm not needed.

My existence is inexistent. Thats how I felt about you.

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I am suppose to start work at 9.30 am today. But reached at 10.00am. I've lost all the interest to be the one who's early for work everytime. HAHA. Lately, little miss sara is a lazy lazy bum bum. i know.. its a drastic change. haha.

Being in a service industry, it is really challenging. There's a price to pay.
1) You have to communicate well.
2) You have to be polite.
3) You have to be friendly and patient.
4) You have to handle your own customers and must liable for your own actions.
5) You have to take control of other people's mess/shits.
6) Your working performance are being analyzed every day .
7) You get pretty demoralized with stupid customers at times.
8) I am still a newbie and sometimes, I'm dying to cry for help.
9) There's lots of expectations and criteria.
10) Being a customer service officer is not easy. Damn.

I went to meet up Lynn after work. To hv a small get-to-gather and so-called mini celebration for her 21st b'day. Since today I am late for work, I have to pay back my 30 mins lateness. I thought I could just skip the idea of paying back and straight away at 7pm sharp i can leave the workplace to meet my gfs. But then, haha! I rather not get caught red handed, I better be a good girl and accomplish my work. So yeah, I got the day delayed from there. The journey from my workplace to Downtown East take quiet some time. Sorry girls -Wirna, Sandy, Lynn.. I'm late, thank you for the kind understanding. (:

By the time I'm on my way home, I'm already half asleep. Super Tired. But hahaha. My lappy internet connection is back.. & look's like I'm such a game addict. Woooo-hoo, Facebook oohs. At 4am, it's sweet dreams and good nite!

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My heart is aching when I'm missing you. My eyes are drowning when I think of you.
I have to constantly tell myself..

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I'm at home all day. Nadiah's gone to chalet. Nina's gone to John Little sale. Looks like I'm the only daughter at home helping my aunt and relatives and mum. Mum cooked chicken rice and macaroni today. Yeah, lotsa food to eat. Bloated, seaweed.. ice cream.. crackers.. chicken wings.. durians! Kindda so-called family gathering, but I don't see the point of gathering when my sisters are not at home.


Oh wells, there's gonna be a flea market tmr - 7th June 09. According to mr a's cuzzie, there's this one at plaza sing atrium. Hahaha. Well as for my research, there's gonna be super nice clothes @ Home Club, 2pm to 9pm. Darn, I finished work at 8pm. Confirm I can't make it in time. Shucks! I'M WORKING.

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