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Life can get a little complicated now..

Within a month, someone can just become a person that I used to know.. Seriously? I can't even bring myself to believe that things are happening this way. What's the meaning of happiness (in relationships).. I'm looking for it right now.

To get started on what happened, basically me and him fought. I think it looks like he's changed, and he blames it on me that its not fair for me to blame him when we didn't get to meet. Thinking of all the possibilities to reason things out just won't work.

The ego is sooo high that even no matter what I said, you'd still think and do whatever you want. After I lost my previous bf 5 years ago, I thought that I should treat the current one better. But little did I know that.. it's only me who gets concerned 'bout everything else. It feels like I'm tasting my own medicine after what I've done.

Trying to be nice to someone.. this is what I get. Yes, I can't request to be happy all the time 'cos life has its up and down. But still.. I was hoping that I could have the strength to be stronger than this.

So many things I want to do.. So many place I want to go.. But if that one person can't bring me, and he doesn't want to do that with me.. what's the use? To the point that I'm so tempted to say.. at any moment if you feel that I'm just someone whom you've mistakenly fallen in love with, you can just leave.

Words are just words. It doesn't seem to mean anything. I've lost my trust in you. I love you & I miss you, its just letters and alphabets to confuse someone. And with these words, I'm not determined that it can bring me happiness. Welcome to the life of tough love.

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You do not intend to reply me, do you?

After I gave it much thought, in this relationship, I'm not gonna think with my heart.
Start thinking with my mind. I wish to keep in saying this as long as it takes.

What I've been through, I've realized that I'm getting weaker by being too nice.

He's getting quiet as usual. In the middle of this exam period, I do not really want to disturb him.
All I can say is that when he's angry, he'll just keep quiet. He'll neglect me.

One thing I'm not sure 'bout is.. what is he angry with?

Is it 'bout me taking my time to tell him what he should know.
Or is it about me, being born in this kind of family. I, honestly, don't get it.

Well, if you really want someone perfect.. you can start searching. Because I am not.

And I can't be the perfect one.

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I am not comfortable with whatever is happening lately. And I'm not sure if I should type it here.

Okay, on second thought I knew I cant help but to let out everything here. I mean, to who else I can say whatever's on my mind right. Only god knows. First things first.. amri has been reacting weird lately. And having menses now made me feel like more EMOTIONAL. And I dun like it when this emo thing happens.
Cos I will cry a lot when something's not right. & I do get angry easily. However, deep down inside I know I am stronger than this because I have gone through much more worst before.

(Tears do fall down my cheeks as I'm typing this)

If you ever get to read this.. I just wanna say that at this point of time.. I don't feel like I do have a boyfriend. And for 2 + 1/2 yrs, I still don't get what I mean to you. You got scared when people talk 'bout marriage for us. You are alrdy 24.. and next year being 25 -I dont think you'll ever gonna be ready at all. Go. Enjoy life. No one's stopping. Just don't say that I don't bother. Cos I did use to bother.. Now you're on your own.

Eversince you started this new job.. you're becoming like a stranger. And you make me feel like saying this "I have a boyfriend but I don't feel like I'm having one".

An on top of all this, I have 1,001 reasons not to be happy with work. If not for 1,001.. well make it to 10.001 then. If its still not enough.. then increase the 0's in the middle as much as I or you like. Oooh wells. Let's just stop here ok? I think I'm losing it.

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Labels: shut up and let me go

I just feel so sad.. and i'm not sure if I could take this anymore. I don't want to give up in life just yet, but my patience has its limit. I msged you yesterday at 8:48pm.. asking "halo..ngah uat ape dear". Only today at 6.44am.. you replied "Dear gooooooooood morning".

Not replying my msg is your biggest mistake. And using overslept as an excuse for not meeting me, is your biggest mistake. Let me ask you this.. just what are you thinking ur doing? Reply me as and when you like.. Go out with me as and when you like.. Call me as and when you like..You're doing whatever as and when you like.You know, sometimes I have this kind of feeling whereby, your beloved friends is placed more important than me. And I really do understand that I am not your girlfriend. I am just your friend for goodness sake. So who am I to know your whereabouts and what your doing kindda stuff. Who am I to get involved in your life. I am in no position to say anything to you ok. And clearly I do know the definition of friendship and relationship.

If you're doing all this things again, then I duno what to say. Where do I actually stand in your life.. you making me feel as if I am nobody and I am equally less important. I don't think I know you at all. And I don't think we could work out. Because why.. I hate the kind of feeling when other guys want to meet me, I had to said no. Other guys want to talk to me, I had to missed their call intentionally. Other guys msg me, I had to leave their msgs unreplied. How I wish instead of those guys doing those stuffs, it was you. Do you know how much it hurts to realize that when I chat with a guy, its not you. And when I talked to a guy on the phone its not you. And when I sms a guy, it's not you. Morever, i really do wish it was you.

I began to learn what I want in life now. Life is too short, and we had to treasure all the things we had. And if you notice that you have been missing from my life. I'll be missing from yout life too. Let us together be "MISSING IN ACTION" from each other. I am sure it's gonna be fun. *sarcasm* Here I am, crying again for you. And thoughts of I should let you go fills my head. If you want me back, you'll come running after me. If not, I'll say my last goodbye.

I'll be alone, on my own.

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(@1:05pm) Binget sakkkkk!

I am suppose to meet mr.a today.. But until now he haven't wake up. Then what's the point of making a promise to me, that you can wake up early.. but in actual fact. we can't go out for lunch today at 1pm. Don't make promises which you can't keep!!! I am god damn angry. The thing is, I will be having a bbq this afternoon at East Coast park with my dear polytechnic friends. And I want to go cycling with Farhanh at about 3 or 4pm. So I try to make time for him today. But then, see now what happens.. he's still sleeping! Haiyo. Heart pain.

Isnt' it kindda irritating? I wanted to meet him on Thursday, he said he's tired. And when he wanted to meet me Friday (yesterday), I had plans shopping with my friends. At least I did ask him along yesterday, but he didn't want to follow. And by yesterday's nite, he's out with his friends chilling. And now he woke up late, so we can't go out for lunch. How much worst can things be? Plus.. I did tell him that we can meet up for dinner tomorrow,if only we cant make it today, but he reminded me that Monday is a working day. If we keep on remain like this, what am I suppose to do now?

Ur off days on Sat and Sun doesn't come by that easily. I felt that ot only comes once in a blue moon every month. And now, when this is the time for the "once in a blue moon" to happen, we wasted it like it didn't even matter to us. omgg, I hate to sit and wait for your sms, or call.


(@ Night)

It's a rainy day.. But our life must still go on. Went to ECP. But before that, met up with Fazees, Rab, Farhanah and Kenneth at Singpost ferst. It feels so good to see you guys! :D *You're being missed* At night, had the bbq.. then went to chill at Mc Cafe - Marina Square.

Labels: School life in NYP, shut up and let me go

Amri: Dear tgh uat ape
Sara: I aru je nk msg u sey..tapi u dah msg dulu (: i ngah mkn dinner nie dear. u ngah uat pe? dah mkn?
Amri: I tgh mkn rojak b. Mkn je ingat my girl yg tembam ni. Haha
Sara: Huh.. bie?u ok tk?asal mcm lovey dovey ngn I tibe2 nie. haha
Amri: Okla.. Tak lovey dovey ngn u la. Hmph
Sara: aik.. majok? tkmula gini, I'm starting to like the lovey dovey u bie.. mwaaah. u kt ne?
Amri: I'm near my place there..
Sara: okay.. with frens? i ate sakura today. kenyang sey bie.. buncit ):
Amri: Hmm with who? I'm w my fren
Sara: I'm w my fren also. Can i ask sumthing.. baby boy majok ke..
Amri: Hmm nvm la. U pon tk suke pe
Sara: jgn la gini.. i tk ckp i tk suke. i cume heran.. last time u tk cam gini. tadi i was merely asking. n nw mcm my fault gitu uat u majok?haish
Amri: Hmm then who else make me majok? U at home?
Sara: I'm otw back alrd. U at home? I knw I make u majok. I'm sorry k
Amri: Ok. I'm goign bk too
Sara: Abeh tk accept my apology?bie.. tkmu majok la ngn I sayang.yuhooooo. tkmu majok ngan I ok..peace!
Amri: Peace? Hmmm ok
Sara: Tkmu ok je lah.. haish. I dah try pujuk u sey. Abeh u tknk. Dun say I didnt try.. but u choose to majok. Up to u la.
Amri: Hmmm. U rili gt no patience. Ok I gt nth to say. Gd night.

OMG. Just because I asked him about why he is being lovey dovey so suddenly.. It leads to the extent that he said I have no patience? What the hell. Is it wrong for me to ask such question.. what's worng with you? You do not need to accuse me that I'm not patient! And if I had no patience with you, Right from the start, I would have left you long time ago.

Because I do believe that our relationship would somehow work out one day.. I choose to believe in myself that we could go through this together. But seeing the fact that you already msg me those pathetic words. I think this will all change every single thing now. Including my feelings for you. I don't bother anymore about you baby.

Plus, if you really think that I;m not good enuff for you.. Then I'm sorry to say ur ex has more patience than me. I'm getting the whole picture now. Probably you haven't gotten over her yet. And the way you told me stories that you ignore her.. You actually hide those stories that you contacted her. Haven't we gone through enough about ur ex already? Screw this shit! If you're not moving on with life, I am.

Tell me now, a reason for me to stay with mr. a. Because I'm losing my will power to love him day by day.

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Working as usual. And we msged as usual.
Today's my working day. Today's his standby day.

So what did he do at work? Walk around chinatown and shop. OG there's sale! Nothing to do at work for him... While me, I watched the Boys before flowers korea drama series at werk. Slack today. Heheh. Since lynn and wan gonna break fast outside, I thought mr a n I could join. But its like we dunno where to go. And Im just afraid things will be difficult for mr a cos after work, he went to gym at bukit batok and he agrees to meet me at town at 8 plus. He's frm town just now and he has to go back to town? Tak payah sudah. Save your trouble. Then at last we msn. But I got angry at that moronic basket!


Siti Sara: [ if you knew what you'd meant to me. ]- 9 Sept

Him (10:33 PM): anw interesting pm. what isit all about?
Her (10:33 PM): nuthing? haha, its just how i felt
Him (10:33 PM): felt abt?
Her (10:33 PM): abt you? haha
Him (10:34 PM): so ur unsure if its about me
Her (10:34 PM): no lah. im confident, just that im shy ah.
Him (10:35 PM): ok.. tell me about it
Her (10:35 PM): there's nothing much to say abt.. other than if you knew how much u meant to.. me *blush
Him (10:36 PM): so how much i mean to u
Her (10:37 PM): more than words could ever say
Him (10:41 PM): awww u sure? thats so sweet
Her (10:41 PM): u keep on saying "u sure?" its like ur doubting me like that
Him (10:42 PM): ya just wanna noe if its true.. prolly just a small crush
Her (10:42 PM): haiz.. den i take back my words lah ok. i tell you properly, den u say its just a crush. u nie...
Him (10:43 PM): then whats the right word then
Her (10:43 PM): must you even say "prolly just a small crush".. so prolly all i do these while is just a small crush?
Him (10:44 PM): i dunno.. thats y i ask whats the right word
Her (10:47 PM): what do u think is the right word?
Him (10:47 PM): dear! ans me pls
Her (10:48 PM): dun wan
Him (10:51 PM): hais if thats the case, i sleep first. night then


Tell me how can I not be angry with that guy? Irritating eh. Why must he thinks that I like him due to a a small crush. Hello, I really really do like you. Its not like a small crush lah sey. But if thats what you said and think that I like you is prolly a small crush, then you have pissed me off. Congratulations! If I were to treat you like a crush, I would have been dating other guys.. and I would have just play around with your feelings.. and I just do whatever I like without thinking anything about you.

But now it's different. I cared a lot bout you, but it end up you're telling me "prolly just a small crush". Urgh! And how can you be so ignorant that we're in the middle of sumthing, talking.. and you can just go to sleep like that. Haiyo! Super irritating guy I've ever mad! ANGRY!!!

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There's nothing i would do other than sit and cry. I'm getting emotional these few days. Happy, angry, sad.. all different emotions per day. Oh well, today.. is no exception. Due to the fact that, i am gonna let it all out nw.

When it comes to you letting me know that you went out with your fren, thats it. i'll stop, and i won't reply. That's when i realize what i meant to you, prolly i mean.. Nothing? Nothing at all. I am not putting any high hopes currently. But all i hope for is to like someone, and to be liked in return. and the way i see it, things are not going to work out if we stay on like this.

If there's no point telling you that i like you, there's no point saying it anymore. Its more like a waste of time. I am not stupid, i have a brain. and my heart is not made of stone, i have my feelings.

Wednesday, i wish to c you.. but u went out with your frens. yesterday, you went out with your fren. today you went out with your fren. YOU WENT OUT WITH YOUR FREN. i am not jealous. But, my point is.. oh your fren doesn't have a name? This is how I felt being not important at all. I kept on thinking, when I'm going to meet him up. But looks like he's always going out with His Fren.

Just when you thought that prolly you're the one he's looking for, you're wrong. He's always with his fren. They must be something greater than you are. And then you began to realize, its just you who.. actualy means nothing at all. I've lost love once. And i don't mind being heartbroken and letting love go. It takes a lot of courage to fall in love again. But I guess, when you fall for someone.. you have to fall out of love back. Until if he falls in love with you deeper, then you fall in love again.

Prolly things are just not meant to be. I don't know.

I don't want to be the one who wishes to see you, when we are not meeting up. I don't want to be the one msging you, when there's none of ur reply. I don't want to tell you I love you, when I know you're not gonna say it back. I don't want to continue falling for you, when I know it takes two hands to clap. I don't want to be the one hoping to see you again, when I know we'll not going to meet. *tears.

It takes two hands to clap. *Be grateful when someone loves you.

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-.- i have nothing else to say. actually, i'm suppose to meet up shuk to give his pretzie. but he has to work from 10pm to 4am on today. both shuk and mr a are free tmr. so whom do i go out with? i'm planning my sunday with shuk halfway. i'm planning my sunday with mr a halfway. prolly i should just make new frens and forget about them. hahaha.

whatever, life is so full of un-expectencies.
i think i just don't bother anymore.

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Smarty pants, you know I finish work at 5pm usually & at 4.55pm exactly today you started to look for me eh..

"Hi Hello. How hv u been? I've bn bz finding work.. no money liaoz.. Hahah.. Gotta tell u smth.. I.. I.. I miss you. "

I gotta tell you smth too, to the hell with your "I miss you". Don't say the words when you don't mean it. You're the stranger and you cut me so deep. How do I tell you that I'm angry with you for sumthing that you hv done. After what you told me yesterday you just woke up, today you hv the cheek to say i'm being missed. Again, if you're not interested just say so. Don't waste my time.

I've deleted your number. I've deleted your msgs. I'm prepared to lose you from my life now. Urgh! Prepare to say Goodbye. Fyi, I'm beginning to hate you so.. and I don't even miss you too.

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I probably get it by now. Thanks for the friendship man. This is how i feel. Even if you could put a smile on my face.. There's still so many doubts about you. One moment I like you, another moment I hate you. I DON'T KNOW YOU. That's it. Who are you, boy?

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That Tuesday.. Everything began with THAT TUESDAY. Me and him had.. 3 days of official silence. I took the initiave at least to break the silence. Hmph! Life is so unfair and I'm still not over it.

10:50pm
hmmm. waiting for me to msg.. or am i being forgotten? or sumthing is wrong.. do correct me if i'm wrong. people dun just keep quiet for a reason kan. & ur reason is..
10:52pm
U sounded angry. Are u? Well after shuk party, i nvr hear from u. Is der anitin i shud noe?
10:56pm
im nt angry.im just confused.. on y u're so silent. u do hear frm me rite..i gt back to u on sat.bt den..its like.i dunnoe. its nt just this once i felt u're keeping quiet.nuthing happened btwn me and him.r u jealous..
11:04 pm
no im not. I remember clearly u msg on sun m0rn and nvr hear u evr snce. I choose to think tat ur bz with work.. thats y i nvr disturb u even tough i miss you..
11:08pm
sun morning? i did msg u sun morning? okay den. busy and tired it is.
11:22pm
Ya.. If im not wrong.. Tell me, honestly is there anitin wrong?
11:51pm
Hmmm n now ur not replying and will b missing again? U hv not explain y u nvr msg me. Prolly ur aslp. Gd nte n swt drmz. Rest well. I miss you
11:55pm
i just finish wash up.. just got hm actually. wangi2 liao. u sleeping soon? i'm replying. nuthing's wrong. prolly, i'm not used to u keeping quiet.communication is very impt.y i keep quiet?i'm quiet becoz u're quiet.
11:58pm
Ok. I noticed that u gt bk home late these days. Enjoying huh? Hmmmm
11:59pm
i'm grown up. y?

This part, I got mad. He msged me fast. So I want to reply him faster. Bcoz y? You realize I went out nowadays.. But I never go out with you sey amri. Instead, you chose to keep quiet even though on Sun u know it that both of us are free to meet up. You no longer want us to meet up or what. Pffft.

12:01pm
Hmmm i dun like tat harsh reply.. Nvm.. Gd nite den.

I realized he got taken aback. And decide not to take things so seriously. Kalau tak suke, boleh bebual ape.. So I decided to cheer things up.

12:07am
haha. dun like means no need msg me ah? its just that im nt ok with how things are.i dunoe..usually when u're quiet..u may find me asking u - is everything ok. well, prolly i'm just concern. prolly, i just think too much.. prolly.. haiyah. i dunoe lah. i went to cleberate b'day again just nw with lynn. too much b'day this mth.. dun angry2 k. smile.


1.11pm
hey.. i contact amri yesterday. according to him we both quiet cos he thought i busy. what the hell. buat bodoh ah. bt i want ask him out. i need return library bk.
1:12pm
haha..oh ok.. den u asking him out when? nari?
1:16pm
i dunoe. haiz. i want msg him. bt i malas gitu.. tahlah. maebe i should juz buat bodoh.cos its like i feel evrytime i ask him out gitu. bt i want to talk to him. dunoe lah. dilemma.
1:17pm
haha..hmmm..susah la gitu.. follow ur heart la. thats the best i tink
1:21pm
if i follow my heart i want. bt den i'm like stopping myself. i dun even knw if i cn diff btwn like n luv. crazy sara.stress sey.. i feel lyk a mad woman.
1:25pm
Haiyoh.u n wirna very complicated.. if following ur heart makes u feel better den follow la.. den u wont be crazy gal.. hehe.

Thank you for the listening ear Lynn. And so, I msged him again. Yesterday I msged him rite.. to day I took the initiave to msg die lagik ah.

1:41pm
hey.. hv a great lunch k. i've had mine. yum yum (: good day.. n ya, apologies if i do sound harsh yesterday. dun really mean it actually. k den, hv fun!
1:57pm
U tk one whole day to apologize. I can sense hat there's a change in u. Whateva la, like u said, ur a grown up, so ya..
2:01pm
there's no change.. im still the same.in fact, i found u the one who change. i repeat, i didn't mean what i said.. thats y i said 'haha' yesterday. want to know what..when u kept quiet, its like i felt what fafa felt. if u want to make frens, at least be sincere in friendship. whatever la?ok fine. whatever

2:10pm
shit. fought with him.he said whatever.haiz.dammit
2:11pm
huh?asal leh gado?wad happen?
2:11pm
tell u later.batt low.


2:24pm
I dun find it amusin at all wen u gv me tat harsh reply. I told u off ystrdy n nw then u apologize... Oh nw u siding ur fren? Great. I shud hv known. N btw get ur facts rite. I didn't keep quiet. Both of us did. So ya, dun just blame me..
3:28pm
ok, i did keep quiet too.. bt it ends up i tried to break the silence rite. and if the silence still continue today, u think we'll be msging rite nw?hmmm.y are we fighting again.. breathe in breathe out.prolly we should calm ourselves down.i txt u later k.caught up in training.


5:03pm
i'm done with work.yay!i ask u one question. do u intend to solve the arguement we are facing..or u really meant it when u said whatever?
5:19pm
I duno, wat u think e best solution?
5:34pm
i prefer face to face direct talk in solving. when's ur nite off.. want to meet up? that is if u still would like to meet me lah *in my heart, i screaming.. i want to meet you lah bodoh!
6:15pm
Tmr im out. But i duno if we shud meet up
6:19pm
r u hesitating? den if thats the case, prolly i think i get to c where things are going n gt what u mean already
6:26pm
dun be a banal girl. U rili mk me wonder wt i did i do tat u gv tat harsh msgs n said im nt sincere in tis rltnshp.. really.. c thru ur sent msgs n u'll noe

if i ever do anything wrong since ystrdy, i try my best 2 mk it up 2 u.when i msg u juz nw, u said whatever la.hw cn u say whatever when i wish u hv a great lunch,hv a gd day.

Frankly speaking,i sense when u keep quiet means there's sth wrong.bt u kept quiet on denying.my feelings say prolly my presence at shuk party make u like dis. and we kept quiet for 3 days mk me wonder y u so quiet. i want u to msg me though i miss you lyk crazy.. i msg u out of concern bt it end up dis way. i was testing u sey when i said 'i'm a grown up.y?'. i want to c hw u handle if i react diff.. Bt u took it too heart n nw we lyk dis.
6:59pm
N if i say im testing u wen i say i duno if we shud mt up, will u kill or kiss me?
7:06pm
wah..cn i cekik2 u first. eh wait, after i said those harsh words ystrdy, it end up u nt replying n i gt scolding wen i first msg u just nw.eeee!grrr. tk jadi kiss u lah.. cekik2 u je k?nw, do u owe someone a kiss?
7:15pm
Hmmm.. Tau marah.. Its e same wen i just say u bn bk home late these days n u rply me lidat.. Angry rite? Haha.. Ya, so u owe me a lot of kisses cos it started from that rude msg of yours. I wan em on my butt, feet n armpit. Thanks!

Pfft.

Well, Guess What! We argued.. But end up smiling in the end. But then along the way, CONGRATULATIONS. You have just proven that your number is not worth to be stored in my phonebook. I've deleted your number baby. My phone shows that, you're my un-stored number now.

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Soon, It will be 2 Days.

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To be loved.. Brand new.

Forget the old, found the new one.. and this shoe.. as far as i have been to the dmk shops.. its nowhere to be found.. only at yishun! once i saw it at yishun.. i thought, next time i can just return to any dmk shops and buy it. but den.. wah piang eh! been to tampines, suntec city, plaza singapura.. search hi and lo.. my oh my. thats y just now.. i ask mummy to accompany me to yishun after we're frm ttsh, after we're frm plaza singapura.. hehehe. cos its important for me to get it before its already sold out. cn cry ah i tell you. i want comfy white shoes, and now i have it! woooo. (:


Oh mr. a.. i dunno what to feel. i really do appreciate it when you realized that i've seldom been msging you liao. and you thought i was busy packing huh? i had to just tell you that its all cos.. once i msg you, when you read and stop replying.. our msg will end there. and the next day.. all i do is wait for you to msg. if you want to msg, you will msg. if u nv msg, den you'll nv msg. because at the end of the day, i will not msg. but i will keep on wondering.. what kind of things that i'll do makes you jealous. and that it'll make you upset. but no matter how far my thought goes. i know deep down inside you care.


Just don't let me catch you playing around with other girls.. and just don't let you catch me playing around with other guys.. by then.. we will end where we began.


Shuk msged me once again.. telling me he's bored. yeah, we continue smsing.. until he said he's going to sleep. oh wells.. i dunno if sumtimes i can understand what he is talking already. what am i doing? what am i thinking sara? i dunno! my life has no conscience.. and i dunno where im heading. Bang Bang Bang.. just shot me down.. Bang Bang.. I'll hit the ground. Bang, just shot me down.. and I'll hit the ground. ok, FULLSTOP.

The night's is super duper cold! enjoy yourself with hot milo and hot crispy nuggets! hot beverages on cold nights, ahhhh.. that will make you feel warm.

Labels: Random shopping, shut up and let me go

i really need someone close to me badly.
to make forget about late bf.. help me move on with life.
cos everytime when i'm alone.. things start to haunt me back,
and i dun want to cry as much as i'm missing late bf now.

because..i'm beginning to understand that he is my past.
and whatever has happen between me and him..
its only meant to last for a while. and not for my entire lifetime.
i really really want to move on with my life now.

you'll be always in my loving memory. my one and only ayang.

yes, i was happy yesterday. the happiest person alive.
and yes, i am sad today. the saddest person alive.
happy because i went shopping with fafa. sad because of him. asshole.

i thought i was strong to be in love again. and now i think i am not. ur silence prove me i was wrong.

let me say this..
you can just do whatever you want.
whatever you like. just dun make me found out things on my own please.
i'm not strong enuff to tolerate.. when you're just keeping quiet.
be it if its on purpose or not. worst still..
my heart splits open when i got to know..
i happen to be online. and guess what! you're online too.
at 1 am? yarr rite.

hello. how are you?who are you? i dunno you.

just dun make me say it, that you're not the one for me.
cos by then i will not be looking back.
and my last words will be goodbye.

*eversince the day i taught myself to be stronger..
i am getting emotionally weaker.

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