♥ Complications. ♥
Wednesday, April 22, 2009 ( 11:59:00 PM )
That Tuesday.. Everything began with THAT TUESDAY. Me and him had.. 3 days of official silence. I took the initiave at least to break the silence. Hmph! Life is so unfair and I'm still not over it.
10:50pmhmmm. waiting for me to msg.. or am i being forgotten? or sumthing is wrong.. do correct me if i'm wrong. people dun just keep quiet for a reason kan. & ur reason is..
10:52pm U sounded angry. Are u? Well after shuk party, i nvr hear from u. Is der anitin i shud noe?
10:56pm im nt angry.im just confused.. on y u're so silent. u do hear frm me rite..i gt back to u on sat.bt den..its like.i dunnoe. its nt just this once i felt u're keeping quiet.nuthing happened btwn me and him.r u jealous..
11:04 pmno im not. I remember clearly u msg on sun m0rn and nvr hear u evr snce. I choose to think tat ur bz with work.. thats y i nvr disturb u even tough i miss you..
11:08pm sun morning? i did msg u sun morning? okay den. busy and tired it is.
11:22pm Ya.. If im not wrong.. Tell me, honestly is there anitin wrong?
11:51pm Hmmm n now ur not replying and will b missing again? U hv not explain y u nvr msg me. Prolly ur aslp. Gd nte n swt drmz. Rest well. I miss you
11:55pm i just finish wash up.. just got hm actually. wangi2 liao. u sleeping soon? i'm replying. nuthing's wrong. prolly, i'm not used to u keeping quiet.communication is very impt.y i keep quiet?i'm quiet becoz u're quiet.
11:58pm Ok. I noticed that u gt bk home late these days. Enjoying huh? Hmmmm
11:59pm i'm grown up. y?
This part, I got mad. He msged me fast. So I want to reply him faster. Bcoz y? You realize I went out nowadays.. But I never go out with you sey amri. Instead, you chose to keep quiet even though on Sun u know it that both of us are free to meet up. You no longer want us to meet up or what. Pffft.
12:01pmHmmm i dun like tat harsh reply.. Nvm.. Gd nite den.
I realized he got taken aback. And decide not to take things so seriously. Kalau tak suke, boleh bebual ape.. So I decided to cheer things up.
12:07amhaha. dun like means no need msg me ah? its just that im nt ok with how things are.i dunoe..usually when u're quiet..u may find me asking u - is everything ok. well, prolly i'm just concern. prolly, i just think too much.. prolly.. haiyah. i dunoe lah. i went to cleberate b'day again just nw with lynn. too much b'day this mth.. dun angry2 k. smile. Silence again. Till Today, my lunch time.
1.11pm
hey.. i contact amri yesterday. according to him we both quiet cos he thought i busy. what the hell. buat bodoh ah. bt i want ask him out. i need return library bk.
1:12pm
haha..oh ok.. den u asking him out when? nari?
1:16pm
i dunoe. haiz. i want msg him. bt i malas gitu.. tahlah. maebe i should juz buat bodoh.cos its like i feel evrytime i ask him out gitu. bt i want to talk to him. dunoe lah. dilemma.
1:17pm
haha..hmmm..susah la gitu.. follow ur heart la. thats the best i tink
1:21pm
if i follow my heart i want. bt den i'm like stopping myself. i dun even knw if i cn diff btwn like n luv. crazy sara.stress sey.. i feel lyk a mad woman.
1:25pm
Haiyoh.u n wirna very complicated.. if following ur heart makes u feel better den follow la.. den u wont be crazy gal.. hehe.
Thank you for the listening ear Lynn. And so, I msged him again. Yesterday I msged him rite.. to day I took the initiave to msg die lagik ah.
1:41pm
hey.. hv a great lunch k. i've had mine. yum yum (: good day.. n ya, apologies if i do sound harsh yesterday. dun really mean it actually. k den, hv fun!
1:57pm
U tk one whole day to apologize. I can sense hat there's a change in u. Whateva la, like u said, ur a grown up, so ya..
2:01pm
there's no change.. im still the same.in fact, i found u the one who change. i repeat, i didn't mean what i said.. thats y i said 'haha' yesterday. want to know what..when u kept quiet, its like i felt what fafa felt. if u want to make frens, at least be sincere in friendship. whatever la?ok fine. whatever
I smsed Lynn straight away.
2:10pm
shit. fought with him.he said whatever.haiz.dammit
2:11pm
huh?asal leh gado?wad happen?
2:11pm
tell u later.batt low.
He continues to reply my smses.
2:24pm
I dun find it amusin at all wen u gv me tat harsh reply. I told u off ystrdy n nw then u apologize... Oh nw u siding ur fren? Great. I shud hv known. N btw get ur facts rite. I didn't keep quiet. Both of us did. So ya, dun just blame me..
3:28pm
ok, i did keep quiet too.. bt it ends up i tried to break the silence rite. and if the silence still continue today, u think we'll be msging rite nw?hmmm.y are we fighting again.. breathe in breathe out.prolly we should calm ourselves down.i txt u later k.caught up in training.
After work, I continue to sms him again.
5:03pm
i'm done with work.yay!i ask u one question. do u intend to solve the arguement we are facing..or u really meant it when u said whatever?
5:19pm
I duno, wat u think e best solution?
5:34pm
i prefer face to face direct talk in solving. when's ur nite off.. want to meet up? that is if u still would like to meet me lah *in my heart, i screaming.. i want to meet you lah bodoh!
6:15pm
Tmr im out. But i duno if we shud meet up
6:19pm
r u hesitating? den if thats the case, prolly i think i get to c where things are going n gt what u mean already
6:26pm
dun be a banal girl. U rili mk me wonder wt i did i do tat u gv tat harsh msgs n said im nt sincere in tis rltnshp.. really.. c thru ur sent msgs n u'll noe
I read back my msgs.
6:54pm
if i ever do anything wrong since ystrdy, i try my best 2 mk it up 2 u.when i msg u juz nw, u said whatever la.hw cn u say whatever when i wish u hv a great lunch,hv a gd day. Frankly speaking,i sense when u keep quiet means there's sth wrong.bt u kept quiet on denying.my feelings say prolly my presence at shuk party make u like dis. and we kept quiet for 3 days mk me wonder y u so quiet. i want u to msg me though i miss you lyk crazy.. i msg u out of concern bt it end up dis way. i was testing u sey when i said 'i'm a grown up.y?'. i want to c hw u handle if i react diff.. Bt u took it too heart n nw we lyk dis.
6:59pm
N if i say im testing u wen i say i duno if we shud mt up, will u kill or kiss me?
7:06pm
wah..cn i cekik2 u first. eh wait, after i said those harsh words ystrdy, it end up u nt replying n i gt scolding wen i first msg u just nw.eeee!grrr. tk jadi kiss u lah.. cekik2 u je k?nw, do u owe someone a kiss?
7:15pm
Hmmm.. Tau marah.. Its e same wen i just say u bn bk home late these days n u rply me lidat.. Angry rite? Haha.. Ya, so u owe me a lot of kisses cos it started from that rude msg of yours. I wan em on my butt, feet n armpit. Thanks!
Pfft. Well, Guess What! We argued.. But end up smiling in the end. But then along the way, CONGRATULATIONS. You have just proven that your number is not worth to be stored in my phonebook. I've deleted your number baby. My phone shows that, you're my un-stored number now. Labels: shut up and let me go
