This may be my last time, eversince I told you.. I love you.

He asked for my number,.. and we exchanged numbers.

Apart from this.. I want you to msg me.. but u didnt. I want you to meet me.. but u're busy working. I want you to chat with me.. but u're not online. I want you.. And.. everytime when I desired for you.. other guys keep coming my way. Just where are you and what you're doing? There's a lot of things I would like you to do. I was hoping that you'd do it.. for me. But u didnt. So now I have to talk to other guys, date with other guys, chat with other guys? You dunno what I'm doing do you? I dunno either. All I know is.. i'm doing this.. as long as I'm staying single. But till how long? As long as I'm single.. But till how long? As long as I'm single.. Till when?Aslong as Im single. So when will I end up being single? Till I dunno when. I kept on asking this to myself many many times. Npw, do u think its time to answer it for me? Sumtimes.. I'm not sure what I'm doing in life. Am i really serious with my boy frens.. or I'm just playing ard. Haish. And now.. I'm trying to recall late bf's friendster. But I hardly remember wat is his email address. I do miss him.

I guess I have to be stronger than I thought I already am. I need to be stronger.

Work is okay today.. But i think there's lot still for me to learn. I'm still feeling as if I'm just like a newbie. Haha. Everything is so new.. and i must be super independent. Work.. also, is again.. kindda bored as usual. For one thing, i'm grateful that there's not much werk to be done.. For another thing, sumtimes when there's nothing to do at work.. you will just sit at ur werkstation and rot. Rot till you finish werk. And the nxt day u reach work, u will start to rot again. Life is a cycle. Be it you like your job or not, life at the workplace definitely has its pros and cons. I.. I.. I.. I.. I kept asking mr a to check his schedule so that we can meet. But I guess he's just too busy. Issit so hard to tell me when ur free so that we could go out together?