♥ Here's How It Goes: The Part 2. ♥
Wednesday, July 29, 2009 ( 11:58:00 PM )
I can't sit still and wait for him to tell me whats wrong. So I asked him..
S: come on, tell me whats wrong
A: i dunno.. i just feel that u cant be bothered lidat..
S: WHAT!?
A: i mean the things u said makes me feel like u cant be bothered la
S: huh! what did i say that makes me can't be bothered?
A: " thats nt fair, oh well, i cn only try.. but its up to you to believe rite.. its alright i understand" (as qouted from earlier msn conversation)
S: i told you once, its hard to change ur mentality.. cos i feel that if you feel you dun believe me, den it means you don't believe me
A: thats what you think
S: nothing i say or do would change that
A: if you try hard enough u'll succeed
S: yah cos i've done that before and it won't change a thing
A: but its ok, i know you wont.. u rather let it be right?
S: i'll only give time to prove you wrongS: tell me, what should i do what can i do
A: i wont tell you what u shud or shudnt do. just do what u think is right
S: answer me this y should i make you feel that i do bother when you dont think i bother. its like you're always thinking the opposite of what i'm doing. and when i've already tried to prove you wrong, it seems that i just gotta try harder and harder and harder and harder. trying too hard can get me really tired. when the truth is, you won't even see that i m already trying and thats what purely heartbreaking
A: its either i think ur not trying hard or not at all, or u think u tried too hard thats y u just gv up easily
S: because i dun like trying too hard
A: prolly thats the reason
S: but the point is, here i am trying too hard and you're thinking that i have to try harder and harder and harder and harder and harder
A: weird u mention u dont like to try hard.. but ur saying u alrdy did?
S: just what is ur point.. that i am nt trying too hard at all.. that i dun even try.. that i dun even bother about you.. that i dun even care. i..
A: .?
S: haven't i said enuff? i dunno what to do anymore
A: u seem angry.. are you?
S: no, heartbroken
A: dont be..
S: y shouldn't i? when the guy thinks i'm not even trying, when i've already struggle to try. and the guy even thinks i'm not bothered, when inside my heart i really do bother a lot!
A: baby.. angry ehh?
S: like i said, what you want me to say or do? pretend like nuthing has ever happen? i dunno lah u
A: lets drop the subject k
S: i won't drop the subject unless its already settle
A: ok lets settle it then
S: just what is the problem.. what's wrong?
A: cool down first then we talk.. ok, firstly
A: i already mention..i just felt that you cant be bothered.. the way u said things and the reaction u gv me.. i dunno why.. prolly im asking too much.. or u not trying hard enough.. im just not convinced, thats all.. be it anything.. but its ok, if its the way ur handling things, i'll just accept it
S: what if i tell you that i feel the same way too
A: you urself said u dunno what to do
S: the thing is, i also felt that you can't be bothered. the way u msg me and the things that u do
A: i hope u saying it not to spike me
S: im not spiking.. thats what i feel too
A: and they say time doesnt wait for you.. u have to make things happen
S: nah, im the person who waits. bt i still dun get it, y u said im nt even trying.. which part of us, that you want me to show you that i'm even trying
A: be honest n open w me, just let me know what ur feelings inside
S: abt what specifically?
A: u see, example, if i nvr talk about this, u'll keep it to urself
S: because i think if this is the way you're going to work, den i'll just keep up with ur phase lah.. i follow according to the flow
A: then i guess ur not being urself
S: i am being myself... there, you're starting it again
A: why not just tell me and we sort things out?
S: cos i tknk once i dah bebual, i got carried away and you got me thinking that i'm a crazy girl who likes you. haha, im not convince bout ur feeligs
A: "you got me thinking that i'm a crazy girl who likes you" this part i like.. convincing
S: its not funny, im serious
A: and i am serious... if ur a crazy girl who likes me.. then i know that u really like me... for now its kinda vague
i dunno your feelings either
S: and i dunno your feelings either. its weird sumtimes. when i think that i should let you know that i like you but we're just frens kindda thing.. i dunno, i feel restricted that i should let you know that i'm the crazy girl sumhow. and when i feel that you're not the crazy guy who likes me, thats y i dun show yet i am the crazy girl. its just that im not sure if the guy who likes me is crazy enuff as me
A: hahaha... so whats the solution now. i wanna hear it from you
S : u sure a nt? but i want to hear it frm you
A: then what u looking for
S: that i want to hear it from you if you're crazy for the girl, but instead you tell me you want to hear it frm me
A: im crazy for you..
A: heelllloooooo, now ur quiet... im being direct now
S: ok
A: ok aje..
S: den? im crazy for you too ok (:
A: hahah u always lidat.. i do then u do.. i say then u say. sometimes i dunno if u did or say because u mean it or u just go with the flow
S: u also what.. u wait for me to do, den u do.. den u wait for me to say, den you say.. u wait for me to msg, den u msg. u wait for me to say hi at msn, den u say hi
A: eh eh dear.. cute nye marah, hahahha. kenekan org alik ehhh...
S: haha, u pandai bebual tapi u pon same ok
A: tsk3 this girl uh
S: this guy ah buat i geram je!
A: hahah k lar leme bathe first.. i text you before i turn in. muahckz. miss you syg
S: isyh, u blum mandi!!!!
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